Sonder

Chapter 2

II

                         WHY HADN'T I NOTICED THAT? No, let me change the question; WHY DID I FORGET? That's like the only memory that is least to be forgotten. Can a soul forget? But how did I die? I checked the calendar we have in the living room. It's August 13, 7 days after my 21st birthday. But there's a mark on the 5th of August.

                   AUGUST 5 R.I.P Hallel; check drawer B for documents.

                                    So I died the day before my birthday? How and why? I went to drawer B to check the documents. Based on all the documents I've read, it states here that I committed suicide. Everything started to come back to me. All the memories and feelings I've felt when I was still alive. Is it even possible for a roaming soul to have emotions? Is it even possible for me to feel hurt? To feel the burden that I have been keeping all these years?

                           I saw a glimpse of Vanessa in my peripheral vision. I followed her and saw that she went to my room. "Hallel? You can come out now; I'm tired playing hide and seek! Please show yourself now," she cried. Kenji immediately went inside the room and comforted her.

                       "Don't worry, Vanessa, you'll find her soon."

                      Kenji has been taking care of her ever since mom died 3 years ago. We had moved out of our old house and took the savings mom left us. It was written in her last will testament that the savings she has in her bank account should be 100% given to us and not to dad. Since I was the only one left with Vanessa and she had this disorder called Autism; Ever since mom died, she changed so much and almost wanted to commit suicide. She even tried burning herself from the stove; so I had no choice but to hire a helper that will help me take care of her.

                    The day I hired Kenji was the most memorable day for Vanessa. He was her first love; It was definitely love at first sight for Vanessa. She became comfortable with him in no time. She followed everything he said; she became a better person because of him. Years passed but I'm still unsure of what Kenji feels for her; but I guess Vanessa's got his heart. She isn't that really hard to love. She's got this personality that will capture your heart. That's why I love her so much and I can't afford to lose her. But why didn't I think of her before I committed suicide?

                 Maybe I should---