Sonder

Chapter 5

V

In the blink of an eye, I was taken back to 3 years after. Again, everything was familiar. The surrounding was more modern. It had this August vibe, and IT WAS THE 1ST OF AUGUST.

It's 4 days before my birthday.

4 days before I committed the biggest mistake of my life.

And now this is my chance to change it. I may not have changed my fate with Ana and Eman but I will do my best to change my destiny for Vanessa.

I watched myself stressing over lots of things. I was still studying in college, I had 4 part-time jobs and sister duties every time I went home.

One day, I received a letter from the rehab center saying that our father had died because he was shot dead. A troop raided the place and shot everyone they could shoot. I didn't know how to tell Vanessa about it. A tear escaped from my eye, Vanessa went closer to me and said,

"Why are you crying, Hallel? Is it a sad story or is it tears of joy?"

I was speechless and went to my room. I knew what would happen the day after this, so this is the reason. Was I that stressed to commit suicide? I wrote another letter for her. I will use every piece of strength I have to write a persuasive letter. A letter that will change even what the heaven's plans.

Hallel,

This is the third time you are receiving a letter from me, I know it's weird but believe me I am telling you what is best for you. So I hope that you read, understand and apply this in real life.

Life is a precious gift given to God; your job is to take good care of it. You may be given tough times in your journey but you should never give up. SUICIDE is not an answer to a problem. It won't end your problems, but it will end your life. It will end the possibility of seeing Vanessa grow and have a happy life, it will end the time you can spend with her. I know you will regret it if you did it.

So instead of doing stupid things, go and invite Vanessa and Kenji to have a good time with you tomorrow.

XOXO

Hopefully, this should help. I'm not the woman of words but I put all my feelings into this letter. I put it in a place where she will be able to see it.

Finally, she took the letter and read it and cried. Why am I such a cry baby? Later on, she went to sleep; and on the next day...

FATES HAVE FINALLY TURNED...

She did exactly what I told her to do. They went out to the park and did lots of activities together. Finally, I became happy. I breathed a sigh of relief; I have changed the one thing in life I regret the most. But what is to happen to my soul?

Will I return to my body?

Will I be able to remember these things?

HOWEVER

Fate will find its way.

Vanessa accidentally dropped her ball and it went straight to the middle of the streets, causing her to follow the ball without minding the moving vehicles; and Hallel saved her.

She saved her.

She saved me.

Fate does not ask what you want but fate knows what's best even if you don't.