Vikk loves who..?

Realising

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VIKK'S POV:

As our Dominos arrived, I just couldn't stop thinking about what just happened. Simon had just done a serious ass thing I mean, he seems okay, for now.
I suddenly start to get goosebumps as his words repeat in my mind.

'I love you'

I obviously knew that he meant it as a friend, but I couldn't help it. I was lovestruck over one of my Bestfriends. Why? A question I couldn't answer but I wanted it to stop.

Maybe if I keep away from him for a bit, it will stop?
God, I hope so.

Of course, I was spaced out at the table while Jj was waving his hand in front of my face.

"Viiiiiiilkk." Jj yelled whilst chuckling.

I shake my head out of my own thoughts.

"Vi-"
I hit his hand away from my face and start laughing.

"Alright, alright. I'm back" I bagan to snicker.

Ethan spoke up

"Mate, you were out of it. Your pizza's cold"

"Alright sorry...Dad." I jokingly reply.

Everyone started to giggle and choke on their pizza or drink.

"Go on, vikk!" Simon cheered

I looked over at a smiling Simon who appears to be looking back at me. I choose not to say anything, instead I grab my phone out of my pocket and pretend I'm doing something important. I feel Simon's eyes drift away from me as he joins the conversation Jj and Ethan are having.Probably something about football, nothing I'm interested in, that's for sure.

I decide to walk up to my room with the pizza I had left. No one seemed to really notice so I just left without a word.

I put my phone on charge, sat down and started to watch random things on YouTube. I wanted to relax for once and not worry about my romantic feelings for Simon until...I get a knock at my door.

Unfortunately, it was Simon.

"Yo, Vikk. You still want to film something for my channel later?" He asked.

I did not want to make a video right now, especially with Simon.

"Ummmm, can we do it another day? I'm not feeling it." I reply.

"Oh really?" Simon said curiously.
"You alright though?"

I just wanted him away
"Yeah, I'm good. Just leave me be, please."

Simon nervously chuckles
"That was very forward, Vikk."

He soon stopped smiling as he realised I wasn't.

"Yeah, bro. Just say when you're ready. I'm here."

I smile slightly.
"Cheers. Close the door on your way out"

He complied, and shut my door.

I stopped smiling and realised my actions. I completely forgot about the incident that happens a couple of hours ago. I instantly feel guilty.

I'm such an idiot-

No! You did the right thing. You can't be feeling this.

But he looked like he really wanted to film with me. What's wrong with me? Just because I get feeling, doesn't mean I need to push him away?

But you HAVE to. That's the only way!

My brain was in a knot, I couldn't think straight and I didn't know what the right answer was anymore. Is there ANY way out of these feelings? What happen if there isn't? Do I actually love him? Like, love LOVE him?

Please, I really can't do this again.
Goddamnit, there's no way out of this, isn't there?
I would've already found a solution if there was one.
It's final. I can't believe it but it's true. I love Simon. I'm finally realising it. I've felt this way about him for a while, I just didn't seem so realise it.

I can't help it.

Fuck sake, here comes another mistake.

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