faded to numb

heads up.

I look at the time.  It's 4 am. I order an Uber for 5:30.. I French braid my hair then twist that to a large bun then from there I put on a pair of black cut skinny jeans a white T-shirt my black and white converse and then a black leather jacket with a grey hood attached.  I put up the hood.  I do my makeup.  I clean the piercing then brush my teeth put on foundation to hide my freckles then some bronzer after I put in brown contacts.  nude eyeshadows and a black eye liner mascara and then a nude liquid lipstick. I look in the mirror great.  I grab my backpack my charged phone and head to my Uber that just arrived soon we pulled up the school.  I look at it.  Oh go this is going to be a long day..  I walked into the office.  Hi I'm new here I need to pick up my schedule... I said to the woman at the counter.

She said "last name?" I froze.

"N-name..?  Uh I'm sorry miss but I don't have a name... " I said telling the truth.

She laughs "sweety what's your last name? "

I look at her "miss....  My mother didn't give me a name at birth." She gave me a very surprised look.

"Well...  Do you have a Nick name we can call you? " She asked not know what to say.

" Search up unknown. It will be me. January 1st 2003. Just call me Esperanza. But don't tell anybody that name.  It's not mine." I say warning her not to say my dead sisters name. I wait for her to print my schedule. I go to my first class...  Math.  Ugh! I walk to the math room already late I open the door. Everybody stops and looks at me guys surprised and girls a bit scared. I look to the teacher.  I'm new.  I shut the door behind me. 

The guy teacher stared at my thighs.  I cleared my throat "stop starring".  I say to him he quickly looks up.

" Uh let me see your schedule." He said as the kids are laughing.  "Okay..  Tell us your name and a fun fact about you."

"Fun fact...  My life isn't so fun.  The same exact moment I was born my sister was killed.  My mom was to devastated to name me so I don't have a name. Call me whatever you want I don't care."  I look around everybody's shocked. "Most people call me unknown." I look at the teacher that was starring at my ass. 

"Seriously?"

"S-sorry" He said as he pointed to the only open seat.  In front of a hot dude oh god I'm not going to like this.... "Go sit there I'll get you your books in a second."

I walk to the seat girls whisper "that freak is so lucky she is sitting in front of him that little bitch will have to fight me for him. Oh my god look he is looking at her she is dead meat!" And similar stuff.  He taps my shoulder I turn around. 

"Yes?" I asked annoyed.

"Do you have a pencil I can borrow?" I grabbed a pencil and tossed it on his paper. 

I turn around to face forward he taps my shoulder again.

"Do you have a piece of lined paper? " He asked again.  I hand him one.   And turn around again.

After a few minutes he taps on my shoulder again. "Here." I turn around I look at it.  I grab the paper out of his hands  I face forward and open the paper.  It says 'new kid eh?  Well I just wanna say u fine as hell.  Like damn.  Here is my number hmu if you want some fun if ya know what I mean. Xoxo' With a winky face and his number.  I turn around to face him you have a left hand bud go use it I said ripping the paper in half fake smiling.  His friend sitting to the left heard and bursted into laughter. The teacher gets mad.

"Why are you laughing?! " He yelled at him. 

"Damn Jacob just got denied in the best way possible from the new kid." He said laughing afterwards.