Love For Me

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Liam's POV

Several years ago my grandmother past away in a car accident just like Ian did, but instead my grandmother had been diagnosed with lung cancer. it wasn't serious but then one day her heart stopped, that particular moment she was driving. Her car drove off the road an hit a tree. Nobody knew about her death until two days later when the hospital of LA called my grandfather at 4 pm. I thought of my grandmother as Ian's funeral went on like a blizzard. I imagined that is how it felt to be in Violet or Melony's position at this certain time in my less meaningful life.

My thoughts were interrupted by a noticeable girl. 'Liam stop being so tough' I heard a familiar but different voice coming from my right side. 'I'm a guy it's what I do' I joked back turning to my side. I looked down to see a beautiful young lady staring up at me, her eyes full of water only to make them sparkle even more. 'I know you want to cry' that same girl now stared at the ground instead of at me 'not even a little bit?' she nudged my side then took a slight step away. I chuckled to find not only one but two small tears fall down my face. 'told you so' she laughed and walked over to a small group of people to the left of the room.

'Violet can I talk to you? please' I went over to her and pulled her to the side. 'what about I can't deal with anything too sad right now' she pulled away and stared right back at me 'look we aren't together we are JUST FRIENDS!'she made that very clear 'fine. I have to go if you want to talk text me' I walked out of the crowded room to find my blue car keys in my pocket. I pressed the button to unlock my silver commodore door and drive away.

The only thoughts that ran through my head at that moment was 'just friends' I mean I thought we were more than that. I got up to the room to open the door and see a note on the table that read:

'Dear Liam,

You've wasted your time on this girl who doesn't love you as much as you love her. She doesn't know everything about you but you wish she did. Liam stop trying to find a place in this girls heart you know there isn't enough room for you. especially when it leaves a hole everywhere it goes... Liam we are all worried about you come back home.

P.S. we left for the spring break to California come and visit.

From the guys'

I realised I had spent a little time with violet but now that she had said that I don't think I will see her for a while. now that my whole family has gone, violet and everybody else has left even my own band! I realised that my life now sucks and to top it all off my insides hurt like hell. I think it's from all the stress, I mean Ian's funeral, violet practically leaving me and Niall, Louis, Harry and Zayn all leaving me to be alone for the spring in this crappy little room.

I looked at my clock 3:25 am my insides still hurt, and remembering everything that had happened yesterday I had hoped my heart gave up and let me lay here and die. unfortunately it wouldn't do that to me so I had lie there and let the pain take over my heart, soul and mind. If it didn't I would be eternally and ungratefully full of a never ending curse that would fill my life with disappointment. So basically I hoped it would kill me instantly.

After waiting several hours for this nonexistent disease to rapidly kill me, I got out of my lonely bed to see that same note where I left it the night before. I flicked the light on and it shone like a bright star-except it was above my head- I hated being so alone. As I stood under the loneliest light in the world I began to think about my grandmother. Should I tell my grandfather what I did the day of her funeral instead of going? Should I talk to anyone? If I did tell him he would beat me for not being there...my thoughts kept trailing off.

My whole body was shaking as I sat down outside the dorm door. It was extremely quiet especially for a college boys' building, but that was due to the fact that everyone had gone home for the holidays, but I couldn't go anywhere because no one wanted me. Violet didn't want to see me-that's what I think-the boys had left and made it pretty clear that they all hated me so I only have one person to trust and that had to be my mother. I decided to go visit her but she lives in Detroit so if I wanted to visit I would have to call and pack everything. I didn't even know if I wanted to continue going to school and doing a music corse. I mean if I wasn't hated I would be loving life right now but that isn't my life, no, my life has to be the worst. Everyone hates me, I feel dead, I didn't have the decency to show up to my grandmothers funeral and I chased after a girl who also hates me right now so the summary of my life is it is the worst life in the whole world at the moment.

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