It's me

Describing How I See Myself

I would describe myself as a caring thoughtful person but I also know that I think badly about myself to much. I don't trust easily and I give people to many chances and allow them to hurt me. A lot of people call me a bitch, whore, slag, slut and a fake which I do end up believing. Obviously I know I'm not fake it doesn't bother me to much when I'm called fake but the rest of it hurts the rest of it I believe. I haven't cut for a while now but I did start drinking and smoking which im struggling to stop, especially when I'm down and feel like I'm not worth it and shouldn't be here no more. I hate myself on a daily basis cause I don't feel good enough and don't feel like I've done enough. In general I just feel like a waste of a human being that shouldn't be here, when there could be someone who is a lot more smarter and more helpful than I am