Existence
“Jane!” was the shrill cry that roared from my parched mouth, my final word as I lay on the ground, meek and unable to move a single muscle. My eyes lay fixated upon her as she did not make a move, not even turn and look at me as I lay there, a mere shadow of my former gallant form. How could she be so cruel to me? The one I loved with all my heart! Who loved me back equally! How could she ignore me in this predicament when I need her the most? But my love for her was untainted by this as even with my final breath all I craved was a final glimpse at her mesmerizing smile which served as the purpose for me to get up each morning and live. As my vision blurred to the negligible, my last sight was that of her silky long hair which seemed like a pure, untainted waterfall during the monsoon, lush and breathtaking. As I slowly lost consciousness, I faded away to where I never expected to return. In this final moment my thoughts returned to the first time when I saw her.
It was spring time; the flowers were blooming, birds chirping and the morning sun shining bright in my face. But these beauties of nature turned blind to my eyes as my focus was on my mission. I worked for a secret agency whose name I cannot disclose before you and as a secret agent I was given a mission to investigate the perimeter of the central library for any kind of terrorist threats due to recent bombings. But this seemed like a rather stupid and boring mission to me as a library is the last place terrorists would attack. Bombings are done at crowded places and with today’s world a library is one place which starves for readers like a desert starves for water. I expected nothing from this mission, but little did I know it was about to change my life forever. For at that very moment someone stepped out of the library carrying a voluminous load of books. At first I did not pay attention, but then that figure dropped the load onto the ground and I decided to go ahead and help. I began to collect the scattered books off the ground; it came to my notice that the person carrying the books was a girl since I got a glimpse of long hair as she was collecting the books with me.
When I was handing her the books I collected she looked up at me and smiled. At that moment it was as if that the entire universe had stopped. Time stopped moving, the birds stopped chirping and the sun stopped shinning. It was just her and I. Looking into her eyes, which were as blue and deep as the serene deep ocean, vast and filled with secrets I experienced emotions churn within me which I had never experienced before. I was left speechless unable to utter a single word. She spoke something but it seemed my ability to hear had stopped completely. At that very moment as I stood up with her, that brief second; which seemed to have lasted a thousand years, I spoke my very first words to her “I Love You”. What did I just say? Why? These were the thoughts that crumbled through my mind after those three words had escaped my mouth like stimuli without my consent. I had just proposed to a girl whose name is still a mystery to me. She gave me a weird frown, completely against the smile I witnessed a few moments ago. I could see she was infuriated, and the next thing I know the blood circulation in my cheek came to a standstill as I experienced the most painful slap of my life. I cannot explain how devastating it was. But the pain and humiliation was nothing compared to what I had just felt before it.
As she left my vision was confined to her as I witnessed her lush hair from behind just as I am witnessing right now, only difference being that now I am about to die and then it was like I was just born as I felt that my life only started after I saw her and before it I was just drifting along aimlessly. At that moment I knew that I was going to marry this girl and that she is “The One”. Being a secret agent I had great skills of pursuit making it an easy task for me to follow her undetected all the way to her house.
She stepped out the next morning and I stood before her apologizing for my mistake. I told her that I was sorry for my actions and for what I had said but I was unable to help it, she was the most beautiful girl I had seen in my entire life and when she gazed with a smile upon me it was as if my world had come to a meaning, my dead life was suddenly re-infused with spirit and that I did not mean to say but words came out of my mouth unmotivated and unintentional. She still had the same frown on her face and my heart filled with fear of the same slap which almost made me lose consciousness yesterday. But this time she just left. But as she left I caught a glance of something magical, a smile on her face gleamed like the bright sunlight after the dark and gloomy night, the rest of my day I spent with day dreaming and crashing into walls as my mind and vision were engulfed by the sight of that smile and all else ceased to exist.
