Sweet Dreams- a Criminal Minds fanfic

Chapter 3

She was shaking. It wasn't something she could control, but she still hated herself for acting that way. When she talked to JJ she had been able to keep herself together, put everything into their boxes, but as soon as she drove away from that house everything came back. His touch. His lips against hers. The way he squeezed her neck. The feeling of his penis rubbing against her. Everything.

She just wanted to go home and take a shower, just forget it ever happened. No, she had one stop she had to make first. Being awake all night had given her a lot of time to thing. A hospital was out of the question. But he hadn't used a condom and she couldn't let her best friend's husband knock her up. So she parked the car in front of a pharmacy where she knew she could a pill. Of course the rational side of her brain told her to get a SATC, but she just wouldn't listen to that. She didn't want anyone to ask questions, to take DNA samples from her most private part, to take pictures of her nude.

As she exited the car she was well aware of how she must look in other people's eyes. Her hair was disheveled, her make-up had disappeared almost completely and her eyes were red. The only thing she could hold onto was her posture and the way her face could turn emotionless.

That's what she used when she entered the pharmacy. An old lady looked her way and Emily almost let herself shrink under the gaze. Maybe she should've waited until she got cleaned up, but she knew that as soon as she stepped inside her apartment she wouldn't be able to leave all day. Not until tomorrow when she would have to go to work or if they got called in on a case tonight.

Stepping up to the counter, she was well aware of the older woman's gaze on her.

"Hi, erhm... I would like a morning after pill," Emily spoke in a hushed tone, not wanting too many people to know why she was here.

She knew that this probably looked bad and the woman behind the counter seemed to suspect something too. If it wasn't for the bruises on her face that had started to shine through the make-up, she probably could've gotten away with this as a drunken one night stand.

"Here you go miss," the woman put the pill on the counter and Emily gave the woman her credit card.

There was a moment of silence as the woman typed something on the card reader and when she was done she hesitated slightly before handing the card back.

"Have you gone to the hospital?" the woman asked.

Emily should've been prepared for the question, but she was still taken aback.

"I... No, I'm fine. Thank you," Emily said, taking the pill and starting out the store.

"Just don't shower," the woman said way too loud for Emily's taste and if Emily didn't want to get home so badly, she would've turned around and lectured the older woman.

Instead she left the pharmacy and hurriedly got into her car, starting it as soon as the door was closed. Putting the car in gear, she drove out from the small parking lot and headed in the direction of her apartment.

Halfway home her phone beeped and just one glance to it made her almost drive through off the road. She could see Will's name, but she didn't dare to pick her phone up and read what he had to say. Not when she was driving.

What if he was apologizing for what he did? Would she write back, telling him that things like that happen? That it wasn't his fault.

No, there were no excuses for what he did.

And JJ deserved to know.

Emily parked the car in front of her apartment building and reached for her phone. Deciding to open the message in the comfort of her home, she stepped out of the car and ran into the building.