Lonely Girl

Chapter One: My Dream

My dream? I would love to live a happy life and when it ends I would like to descend into the sky's to form a star. Shining so bright. No one believes me though. No one wants me to have happiness. They want to crush my dream and shatter it to pieces.

Everyone thinks that I am just a weird girl with dreams that cannot exist.

I thought about it. I would love a husband and a child. A happy life with a happy family. They all think I want Kakashi Hatake. The popular, but quiet one. I do like him a bit. Not a lot though. I don't want to be like the others. The ones who stalk him and fantasize about their future.

I want to live in my own world. One where no one shuts me out for who I am and what my dreams are. I can then escape this torture called reality.

It slowly kills me. Day by Day.

I just want to be happy.

Well I'm a rolling girl

Your POV:

I sit at the end of the stairs. bruised and broken. Constant wounds upon me. No one comes to my side. No one cares about me. I should be used to it now. Its been going on ever since I came in year seven.

I slowly walk my way to the nurses office. Leaning against the wall for support. They pushed me down the stairs again. They will keep doing it until I get the idea. I don't even have one.

I quietly knock on the door. "Come in" A sweet and kind voice rings. I enter to see our school nurse. Her face widens in shock. "What happened?" She asked frantically. "I accidentally tripped down the stairs again" I replied while fake smiling."Your very clumsy. You know that? That's the fifth time this week" She sighed as she cleaned me up. I couldn't tell anyone. No one would understand me. No one would care.

When she finally finishes stitching me up, I walked straight out. I leaned on the handrails since my leg was hurt badly. Not too badly though. As I walked down the halls I saw all the girls surrounding Kakashi. They were on the right side of the hallway and I was on the left. I was leaning on the wall and holding the poll. I looked down trying not to get hurt be any of the girls later for looking at their prey.

Kakashi POV:

All these girl swooning over me is making me sick. They wanting to go on dates and try and pull down my scarf to see my face. I'm probably surrounded by around twenty.

I then hear something coming this way. I look over and see Mocha. Wait! She is hurt! How did it happen?! I looked over at her leaning on the polls while walking. None of the girls noticed! She looked at the ground. Her black hair covering her face.

I was trying to run to her, but the girls wouldn't let me budge. I looked at her.

Your POV:

I kept walking, not lifting my gaze from the ground. Not one person spared me a look. I slowly walked outside to have my lunch. It was raining today, but I didn't care. There was a bench with shelter outside. I can't be stuck in a classroom with them. They will do something to me. I know it. I walked outside to the rain.

I slowly sat down and ate my lunch. I thought about many things. My dream is never going to be real. In this cruel world it doesn't exist. Dreams never become a reality.

I sigh as I know the truth. I look up in the rain. I let my hand be engulfed by the rain. My tears shower down on me. The cold water stings my cuts and bruised hands.

" Why are you out here all alone" A voice said behind me. I turned to see Kakashi. I grabbed my lunch and ignored him. If I dared to speak to him I will get another beating. I could feel him looking at me in confusion. "Stay away from me" I warned him. I kept walking and sat on the stairs. "Did you just speak to Kakashi Hatake?" One of my bullies asked in anger."All I said was 'Stay away from me' so he is all yours" I explained."Good girl. You won't get a beating them" She snickered. I continued eating my lunch in silence.

Just end all this pain and confusion

" I would like to. I would be free of beatings"

I will give you a few days and I will await your answer

"Ok I doubt my mind will change though"

Time Skip

As I walked home I felt a pair of eyes on me. I looked and saw no one. I walked slowly in the rain as other students brought an umbrella. The bullies stole mine today though it felt nice walking in the rain.

Minutes passed and I was still walking. I thought about what the voice said to me. It rang in my head.

I thought about it so much I ran into my door. My mother opened the door." You ran into the door aga- WAIT! What happened to you? Your soaked and you have cuts and bruises all over yourself?" She asked frantically."I'm fine, I just forgot my umbrella and I accidentally tripped and fell down the stairs at school" I explained. "How many times have you done that this week?" She sighed. I shrugged. She helped me up and pushed me in the bathroom. Somehow she guessed I would come home like this and she prepared herself. I sighed as I stared at the clothes.

Time Skip

I looked up at the  stars that shone so bright. I want to be a star on day. Watching over the world.

I hung my head low. That was never going to happen. My dreams are just a wish. I wish that will never be granted.

My dreams were crushed a long time ago. I don't know what to do anymore. Should I accept the voice in my head or should I continue this pain and torture? I will have to wait and see. I doubt anything will change though. My life will just be the same. Day by say I have been bullied and hurt by stalkers.

They don't care about what I feel or think. They are just desperate to get Kakashi Hatake. They will do anything for him. Even kill anyone if it means that they have him.

I would fight back, but I feel that I deserve it. I don't know why.

I felt tears go done my cheeks. I don't know anymore. Is my life just a lie? Do I live for being hurt and bullied? I don't even know myself. Pain is all I hear when I ask myself those questions.

I lay down and star at the ceiling.

Rolling girl with dreams she'll never reach

The things she knows are far away

Screaming to the voices in her head

- Rolling girl - Hatsune Miku

I soon felt a wave of sleep wash over me.

I open my eyes to see darkness. I look around and see a light shining so bright. I run as fast as I can to it as I feel something chasing me. 

I can't look back. Not now. I'm so close to the light. I then felt something grip onto my ankle. I scream and scream as I feel pain shot through me leg. I try and drag myself away. I try and run to the light.

Once I reach it I can see clearly. I looked at the mysterious thing that was chasing me. It was love and happiness. Wait love and happiness? It hurt though and this is the light. I look back and the light is blown out. It was darkness, fear and pain. It was the light though! I then feel it drag my away. I felt comforting, but I couldn't be taking away. I screamed at the darkness. It wouldn't let me go.

I realise now. At first happiness can hurt, but in the end its comforting. Darkness is comforting at first, but then the pain takes over. I guess that's my life.