Unmask [EXO]

Chapter 7: Moonlight

[Jinhee]

{{Dream}}

 “Jinhee! Move!”

“AHH!”

*REWIND*

I went to the park with my bestfriend. There, was a bench which we called ‘ours’, but sadly, it was taken so we took the swing instead. He and I went swinging back and forth. He stopped so I did the same.

“JinJin, JaeJae..uhm..” he scratched the nape of his neck.”I—“ then his voice cracked, so we laughed—shortly. He gulped, trying to compose his words. “JaeJae, I’ve got—I’ve got feelings for y-you, I… like you.. but I promise to wait..” haa?? I- I don’t know what to say.. “Okay, just promise to wait for me, okay? I gotta go, bye!” I ‘cheerfully’ said.. Oh, no, I faked it. It hurts for me, because I know I’ll just hurt him. He shouldn’t like me, he shouldn’t love me.. I didn’t finish his words and ran away. Omo, what are these? Tears? No way.. I don’t want to be sick again.. please refrain from falling. If only I could talk to my tears and make them stop so easily.. I should’ve done it before.. but I can’t.. I can’t control my tears. A few weeks from now, I might be gone here forever. I don’t even know if I can survive. I would never know. It’s only me and my family who knows. I tried taking treatments.. taking this, taking that.. but it seems like it is unstoppable.. it gets worse. It might even take it to the last stage.. But I’m not afraid of dying. I’m sad for those whom I’ll leave one day.. I should’ve just drifted away in soft, thin air.. but, death is not as easy as that.. there will be the people who will mourn for you.. I hated seeing sad people.. even if they’re strangers.. I was running ‘till I was going to cross the street. I slowed down from running. Instead I took a bit fast walks. I don’t know what’s happening outside. I don’t know what I’m doing. I just keep on ignoring the busy sounds outside. The loud beeping of cars, the callings of my name, ---- wait, my name? Someone was calling me.. I stopped. But then continued walking.. I’m crossing the road. I should focus on walking.. I might get hi----- “JINHEE! MOVE!” someone said. Then someone pushed me. Oops! Wrong push! I wasn’t able to control myself and just fell and got my head hit on some rock--- *blackout*

[Someone]

{{Present; reality}}

I could never forget the scene. Why wasn’t I thinking?! That should’ve been me! I shouldn’t have said it. I should’ve been the one that got hit. I should’ve died instead.

*Flashback*

“ JINHEE! MOVE!” I shouted at the top of my lungs, Then there was a guy who pushed her. He was hit by the van instead. While she, when she was pushed, she fell and bumped her head on some rock. H-her head.. it was bleeding. He was bleeding. Both of them were bleeding. While me? FROZEN. I didn’t think! Many people were now watching. I ran to her and and put her head on my lap. She opened her eyes and managed to talk, “ Mukhang mapapa-aga ‘ata ako ah.. I think, I’ll be the one waiting for you.. in *smile* heav---“ she finally blacked out. I didn’t understand some of her words.. but it meant something about leaving earlier---- No, Jinhee! Don’t say anything like that. The ambulance came. Tears were still rushing down on my cheeks. They brought the both of them in the hospital. I followed. When we arrived at the hospital, both of them were immediately brought to the ER. I was left. Crying. Blaming myself. Infact, I should be the one to be blamed.

After a few days in the hospital, she woke up. I stayed there because I volunteered to stay with her.. She needed blood, and I filled the loss by my blood.. I was feeling a bit light-headed. I was keeping myself happy, I don’t want to think negatively.. but I can’t avoided it. I headed to her room, seeing the doctor and some nurses examine her. When they left, I asked her with a smile “How are you?” and she replied with her eyes examining mine. S-she replaced the ‘how’ with ‘who’ from my line.. “Who are you?” MY smile faded.. “ Uhh.. I guess I opened the wrong door.. sorry” I bowed then turned around. I continued walking. She shouldn’t see me cry. I was holding back my tears, and when I finally  was outside the room, I cried.. I blankly stared at the wall while leaning my back on some other bench. The guy who was hit was somewhere upstairs.. I need to see how he was. He was not just a stranger.. he’s my bestfriend.. I ran in the empty hallways and went to the next floor. I arrived in front of his door. I felt guilty.. Guilty because he was included in the incident. He completely knows this girl. Infact, he also had feelings for her. Us three are bestfriends.. We decided not to fight about our feelings for Jinhee, and just let it be. We held it all on a deal. A deal for good. And that is to let her choose who she’s happy with. I asked for his permission that I was gonna try to confess to him. He was already awake. No doctors and nurses surrounding him. I’m quite afraid of what he’ll say.. He might ask the same question—that made me back off. “ Who are you?” He’s not looking. I should’ve known that he’ll give the same--- “I said who are y--- oh, it’s you.. how’s life bro?” He coolly said. “Hey, do you remember me?” I asked and he nodded. Whew~ at least for awhile, my sad thoughts would be invisible. Just for the meantime. “ Anyways, I wanted to ask why I’m here?” he asked.. “ Don’t you remember anything, huh?” I asked and he nodded. “Okay.. you got hit by a---“ He cut me off and replied, “WHAATT?? I got hit? By a what? A-and where’s the mirror? My face!”  he reacted while searching for the mirror. Aish.. “ van” I shortly answered and he exhaled, showing a relieved face. -.- Seriously? “Yes bro, seriously. UHh, good thing it didn’t hit my face~” He can read minds. “ No bro, I don’t read minds and I can’t. As much as I want to, I can’t.”  Are you even kidding me?  “No, bro, I’m not”