Embracing Chaos

Voicing it out

Being the only one aware of the issue/s you are confronted with is one of the major reasons why you can end up falling into depression and even wanting to put an end to your life. You are always going to need someone else to tackle life, be it any problem you have. I don't intend to make you think that you absolutely have to depend on someone to solve your life issues but trust me, talking about it does help, a lot. So, make a step away from depression, away from anxiety and voice it out, talk about it.

Now one major thing that tends to discourage people from voicing out what they are going through is the fear of being judged, the fear of being rejected because of their situation. You will not always find someone you can trust at 200 %, or someone you know you can rely on; not all of us are this lucky. Let me tell you that i am. I have suffered silently for a very long time and there finally came a day where i couldn't keep it anymore inside. I suffered alone for all the time i kept everything to myself. And then one day, i just let it out, tired of it all, fed up of the suffering and trusted some people enough with it. It really helped. I'm surrounded by some great people without whom i wouldn't be able to cope with life. Voicing out was definitely not something easy, more specifically when it comes to very delicate matters. But it surely helped me a real lot. So if you think you have someone who would do their best to understand, and not judge you, go for it. Speak it out. Talking about your pain will help you ease it up on yourself, emotionally. You'll definitely feel better just having someone hear you out. And it really feels good knowing you're not alone when things get out of hand.

For those who can't seem to gather the courage to speak up, you can get yourself a psychologist. There's nothing wrong about seeing one, you only want to be heard and you didn't find any other person competent enough in your surrounding to deal with your issues. It's okay to find help from outside people, and when i say outside people, drug dealers and other similar gangsters are totally EXCLUDED. Now if you can't go to a psychologist, just enroll online sessions, or find support groups. I assure you there's a lot of that online and i'm saying this from experience and since you are probably surfing on the internet 28 hours a day, it's not a big deal finding these. If this is still not an option, write about it. Your language skills might be crappy, just like mine, but i just want you to get that you should definitely not be facing things alone, cause you aren't.

Staying alone and keeping to yourself is THE thing that shouldn't be done in any case. Maybe you were, all this time, but from now on please talk and voice it all out. I swear it will do you good. One thing you should always remember is that life will never be harsh enough on you to succeed getting you down. You're powerful. You've got the power so why stay helpless? You will tell me you're in such a messy situation that you're totally helpless and can't do anything about it and you'll just have to accept it all and that's it. NO. It isn't the case. If after reading this out you don't get my point so read it all over again, repeat, repeat and repeat, until you get it. And if you still don't record it as a song and play it on repeat mode !

We will tackle first things first and the first thing to do here is to let people around you know what you're going through. Shoo away those who think you're an attention seeker, they clearly aren't the ones to call when you're unwell. Plus you can always leave comments down here, i give you my word i won't ignore any of them. Another thing to keep in mind is to always tell the one you're confiding to the whole truth, even how bad it might be. There should be a reason why you chose to confide to this particular person so better tell him everything while you're at it. You will feel better only if you do this and the person will be more efficient in trying to advise you or help you out in any way he finds adequate.

Don't lie, even how difficult it might be, try sticking to the truth, try talking about your feelings, about your views, about your decisions, your inner demons, everything. In the beginning you won't find it easy, of course, but be a bit patient with yourself and give your mind the opportunity to open up to others. Remember, some people might have hurt you in the past but not everyone will. You might be afraid to trust, you might be afraid to open up, to pull down your walls and this is totally normal, but take a chance for you to be better. Take a chance for you to recover. Just speak up for yourself and we'll find a way.

Violence isn't the worth thing on earth. Suffering is. You just have to get yourself ready cause we'll be dealing with yours, just speak up.