Why Me?

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"Luhan open up the door, you haven't left your room in a week I'm worried about you Luhan". This was the 5th time today that Kyungsoo had tried to get Luhan out of his room, but again he had failed. Kyungsoo thought why had he changed into this, ever since Luhan had come back from seeing his boyfriend Minseok, he had shut himself off from the rest of the room. All Kyungsoo wanted to know is why, what had Minseok done to him. On the other side of the door, sat a very pale and fragile looking boy, Luhan was curled up into a ball in the corner of his room, with his small hands covering his ears so he didn't have to listen to Kyungsoo shouting at him on the other side of his door, his arms were filled with scars all were new and most were deep and thick and the shattered mirror that lay on the floor which helped Luhan 'decorate' his arms with the scars and blood, his face was all red and puffy from the non-stop crying he had been doing and the large dark circles under his eyes showed that he hadn't slept for days ,but Luhan didn't care how he looked he didn't care about anything anymore, he let out another sob hoping that more tears would fall, but it seemed like they had all been used the previous time that he had cried. What he done to deserve what had happened to him, why had Minseok done it, and when was this all going to end? These were the questions that played over in Luhan's mind.

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Luhan was a very happy 21 year old with a very happy boyfriend, Minseok, they had been through some difficult times, like Minseok's parents disproving of Luhan and also one of Luhan's ex-boyfriends Yixing begging for Luhan to take him back. But none of this mattered to them they loved each other and that was all they needed. Luhan went to a local university, while Minseok worked as a cleaner for a store and they shared an apartment in Seoul. They were happy, but deep down, Luhan still loved Sehun, the boy he finished for Minseok. That boy was his first love, his first kiss, his first 'time', his first everything. He felt terrible for feeling this way but he couldn't stop loving him, even if Luhan was the one who decided that they should break up because he met Minseok. At the time Luhan thought that Minseok was the love of his life and foolishly threw away Sehun. Now Luhan sometimes thought would his life be any better if he would have stayed with Sehun, but he quickly shakes the thoughts out if because he knows that Minseok was the right choice. He remembered the day that he saw Minseok in the park, he had currently just argued with Sehun over how they were going to pay the rent that month so Luhan had left the small apartment that the shared to go on a walk. He had to get away from Sehun, and just sat on a bench throwing bread to a group of ducks that swarmed around his feet was the perfect solution. He was convinced that it was love at first sight and decided to go over and introduce himself to the cute boy on the park bench. About 1 week later him and Minseok had confessed their love for one another and were already planning on moving in together, Luhan had already texted Sehun telling him he thought they should break up and the whole ''it's not you it's me'' bullshit. This left a very angry and bitter Sehun who from that day was thinking of ways of how he could crush and ruin Luhan like he had done to him.

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Things started to get strange around Christmas time of 2013, Minseok would rarely come home the time he usually used to, but he just said to Luhan that he had to stay later at work because it was Christmas. So, Luhan just thought nothing of it until, he found out that the store that Minseok had worked at had fired him about 3 weeks ago. When Luhan heard this thousands of questions were running through his head, but the main one was ''what has Minseok been doing then''. Conveniently, Minseok texted him saying that he had gone to stay with his parents for about 2 weeks and would be back for Christmas eve and that he had spoken to their friend Kyungsoo,that he should stay with him until he came back and would call him later on that night. Luhan did find it abit strange that Minseok had gone to see his parents without even telling him, but why should he had been suspicious, he was only going to spend time with the people he loved there was nothing wrong with that right? Luhan quickly found the suitcase from the top of his wardrobe and started to shove in the clothes and other things that he would need for the next 2 weeks that he would spend with his best friend, at this point he had forgotten the actual reason why he was going to Kyungsoo's house and was caught up in excitement that he would be going to see one of his closest friends since he was younger.