Why Me?

2[Final]

It had been a couple of days since Luhan had walked out after the large argument that the two of them had had. Sehun hadn’t seen Luhan since then and was started to get scared, had something happened to him, was he hurt. Sehun asked himself these questions, that was when he got a text of Luhan ‘’I’m sorry but I can’t do this anymore, it’s not you it’s me, I hope we can still be friends’’, when Sehun read this his blood boiled, and he simply threw his phone at the wall, resulting in the screen to have cracked and shattered, when he went to pick his phone back up to call Luhan and give him a piece of his mind, he stopped when he saw his lock screen of him and Luhan in Disneyland and that’s when he came up with the plan to make Luhan’s life hell. When he saw his friend Minseok and Luhan holding hands he didn’t know what to think, he started to feel very jealous and it wasn’t because Luhan was happy with someone else he really couldn’t care about him, but because Minseok was with someone who wasn’t Sehun, he had always had feelings for him even when he dating Luhan, but now seeing the person he has always loved with the one who broke his heart. He thought of the idea that he could try and get Minseok on his side to get back at Luhan, but a first was hesitant to ask, but when he did ask he could barely take into account that Minseok agreed to do this with him, but finally his plan was on track to make Luhan see what he did was wrong. ‘’I can’t believe this is really happening, what if something goes wrong’’ Minseok said quiet worriedly down the phone to Sehun, he simply replied with ‘’what’s the worst that can happen eh?’’

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Sehun looked at himself in the mirror, flattening out the creases of him dress shirt and fixing the thin black tie that had hung around his neck. He looked into the mirror and what he saw staring back at him was a man with black lifeless eyes which were full of guilt and regret. Today was the day of Luhan’s funeral and only Sehun had been invited because he had not been given any of the blame for the death of his ex-lover, all of the blame was thrown onto Minseok’s shoulders as it was him who went to Kyungsoo’s house the day Luhan’s body was discovered. And even though Sehun was distraught of the passing of the boy, he was still selfish enough to admit to Kyungsoo the day that he was invited that it was all his fault and idea to ruin Luhan. Looking into the mirror again, he saw Minseok staring at the TV screen, he hadn’t left that position for about 2 days and hasn’t left the has for even longer, not now because when he does leave the house, he is greeted with angry and disappointed looks and whispers all calling him a monster and a murderer. Another wave of guilt hit Sehun as this was his plan and basically his fault altogether because he was a stupid bitter teenage boy who wanted to revenge on the boy who broke his heart those few years ago. He went over to Minseok and kissed him on the cheek, they were still dating even after everyone tried to convince him to leave him as Minseok might do the same to him, and bid him goodbye. He grabbed his car keys and before he was about to leave a soft but broken voice spoke, ‘’so you are actually going to go’’, Minseok asked and Sehun sighed and replied ‘’I have to people might be suspicious if I don’t’’. He then carried on leaving his small apartment and headed to his car; he quickly unlocked it, got in and started his journey to the church.

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He remembers the day a couple of weeks ago when he got the news that Luhan had committed suicide, it was a week after he and Minseok had told Luhan of the plan that they had had for about a year now and he ran off crying. Sehun felt over joyed that it had worked and now Luhan felt as shit as he did when he told him he was leaving. Minseok had just left to go to Kyungsoo’s to go and finish with Luhan for good, so Sehun was on his own just waiting for his new lover to return. His phone started to ring, when he checked the caller ID, and it was Luhan he was hesitant to answer at first because he thought that he would just be calling him to shout at him and call him out for being such a dick, so he just let it ring. But, when he tried to call him for the 3rd time, he was getting a little pissed off, so he answered the phone and waited for the names to be called, but no; on the other end of the line was a crying Kyungsoo screaming random words down the phone to him. When Sehun finally calmed the other down, he was told of the news that Luhan had killed his self. Sehun felt his whole world crashing down in around him, he didn’t want this to happen, he only wanted Luhan to learn his lesson, not take his own life. He came back to reality when he heard Kyungsoo sniffle on the other end of the phone, he asked him what had happened and Kyungsoo told him that he had gone and seen Minseok over a week ago, and when he returned he locked himself in his room and hadn’t left it since then, Sehun felt his mouth go dry, did Kyungsoo know what had happened? Kyungsoo carried on the story telling him how he saw Luhan’s dead body on his bed blood everywhere and a large and very deep cut in his neck. Hearing Kyungsoo explain this the way he did made Sehun fill to the brim with emotions and start crying out, he partly did this because he was so scares and worried that the truth may come out and the other half of him was actually devastated that he had actually drove Luhan to killing himself. Kyungsoo’s final words were very clear and this was mostly stuck in Sehun’s head, ‘’I hate Minseok, he killed my best friend’’, then the line went dead and Sehun’s mind went blank.