My First Love

Chapter 5

[Harry]

I get home from dropping Amber off and am sitting down doing my homework, although I can't concentrate because of what I saw today. Sophia in the alley with a cut on her lip and her holding her stomach, I am torn away from my thoughts when I hear a knock on the door. So I go answer it and am surprised to see Sophia standing there. When I see her red eyes and the tears falling down her face my heart breaks. I love her. "Sophia what are you doing here?"I say and she doesn't say anything. She hands me a piece of paper and leaves. I open the folded paper and read what is written.

Dear Harry,

I can't do this anymore. I don't know what happened that weekend but what I do know, is that I lost you. I tried to tell myself that it would be fine that you really weren't doing this, but then the bullying started. I don't understand why you hate me so much I never did anything to you. I also wanted to tell you that I love you, I am in love with you and I never told you because I was afraid of being rejected, but what I got instead was way worse. My dad has been battling cancer for 4 years and you were always there to comfort me when something went wrong. You were there when we found out, your were my support, but you took that away from me. I found Zayn and Julie but they will never be able to make me feel how you made me feel. You were the one person in my life that I thought I could trust other than my family. I always came to you. You were my support system and you just took that all away. I never thought you would hurt me like you have, I always thought you would be the one to stop something like this from happening. My worst fear was losing you and when it happened it hit me way harder than I thought. The worst part is that you hate me and you bully me and hurt me. Sometimes I wish that I never met you because of everything you have put me through. There is a part of me that does hate you but I never show hate because I'm afraid of the consequences. It's like one day you just grabbed a knife and plunged it into my heart. I will always remember the days we would watch movies all day and mess around. Or the times when you would stay at my house really late and we would sneak out and just walk to a park. Everything was so different then. You were still there. You are a coward but you want to know the funny thing? I still love you and I think I always will. You are my first love. Goodbye Harry.

Love, Sophia.

When I get done reading the letter it slips through my fingers and I completely lose it. I am crying and then I think back to what she said. "Goodbye Harry" What did she mean by that? Oh no. "No!" I scream and I immediately rush to her house. I knock on the door but there is no answer. Luckily the door is unlocked. I walk in and call her name. "Sophia. Sophia! SOPHIA!" I get louder each time I say her name. I run upstairs to her room and see her on her bed I rush to her and shake her there is no response. I run into the bathroom and that's when I see the empty pill bottle. I grab my phone and call 911 immediately. I go back into the bedroom and see another piece of paper so I open it and read it even though it is addressed to Zayn.

Dear Zayn,

I'm sorry that I'm leaving you but I can't take it anymore. Everything with my family. Harry and his friends. It's too much and I can't do it anymore. I am so fed up with them making me feel worthless. I try to believe that I'm not worthless but when you hear it so much it's hard to believe that it's not true. I am so thankful that I have had your for the past two years after Harry ditched me. If I didn't I wouldn't have lasted this long. You have been there for me through so much and I am so thankful for you. I just feel like I don't belong here anymore. So thank you.

Sophia.

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It's been hours and I haven't heard anything. Her mom is here and Zayn also came and I gave him his letter. He read it and started crying. He hasn't stopped glaring at me. I've been crying for so long I'm surprised I have any tears left. I am at fault for this, I did this. I hurt the girl I love and I don't know if she will ever wake up. I may never get to even tell her I love her or that I'm sorry. What have I done? The doctor comes in and says. "Everyone for Sophia?" We all rush up to the doctor and he speaks up again. "She is in a coma." Right when he says that I feel my heart drop to the floor. "There is no telling of when she will wake up we just have to wait. You can go in and talk to her she can hear you." We all nod and thank him. Her mom goes back to see her and Zayn and I are left alone in the waiting room. He walks over to me and says, "You did this. She loved you Harry." He was crying and so was I, then I start to say "I re-" but he cuts me off by saying, "Harry just leave she wouldn't want you here trust me I know her." I don't want to leave but I realize that he is right she wouldn't want me here. So I get up and leave. I just keep reading that letter over and over again. I can't believe how much I hurt her.

[Sophia]

I wake up and get off of the bed and walk out the door. I see my mom and Zayn in the waiting room. Zayn gets up and walks right passed me to the room I just came out of. I follow him into the room and I see myself laying on the bed. I'm not really awake. He grabs my hand and says, "Sophia, if you can hear me. I want to say that I'm sorry I didn't do more to stop them." I see a tear slid down his cheek. "I wish you would've told me that you were feeling this bad I would've been there for you." I start to cry looking at this scene and hearing him say this. "If you ever wake up. Promise me that you won't leave me again." He finishes and then kisses my hand before exiting the room. I walk back into the waiting room and sit down next to him, I lean on his shoulder.

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It's been a week since I have been out of my own body, watching everything around me. I'm sitting in the waiting room next to Zayn and Julie when the doctor walks out here. "She isn't improving much, but it has only been a week. We still don't know when and if she will wake up. It is up to her now. We will keep you updated." I see Julie walk back to my room and I follow her. "Please Sophia it is up to you, you can wake up. I know you are hurting, but we all need you, I need you and your mom really needs you. Please wake up. I love you." I see her start to cry and I do as well. She then exits the room and she goes back to the waiting room. It is so weird seeing this happen from the outside. I know Harry got the letter since I handed it to him, and he probably doesn't care. I wonder who brought me to the hospital.