I woke up to Jimin's side of the bed being empty. I furrowed my eyebrows taking one of his loose shirts to wear and putting on my underwear. opening the door slightly, i peeked through to see Jimin dancing to Usher. I smile looking at him so free. sadly, i couldn't enjoy it for too long, he turned around and stopped to smile at me. His smile is probably my most favourite thing to see in the morning.
"Morning Soojung" he greeted me happily, "how long were you standing there for?" he continued to smile at me.
"not long enough to see how that dance started and finished" He placed sunny side up eggs and bacon on a plate as i moved to the table. While we were eating breakfast I found myself stopping to look at him eating. fml. why does it feel so good to wake up and have breakfast with him ? I missed spending time with him when we were younger. before all this friends with benefit complications happened. I mentally sigh knowing we couldn't go back the way we were before and as much as I love fucking his fine ass, it's not permanent and I need to accept it. I feel my own heart breaking.
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I close the door to my apartment and take a deep sigh as I threw myself into my bed. I shut my eyes to remember him this morning. My heart races at the thought of being with him emotionally and physically but I can't. I signed up for a friends with benefit not friends that fuck and have feelings attached. I internally scream.
'Why do I do this to myself?'
I stare at my ceiling zoning out in thoughts. I mentally slap myself.
"Welp. Day drinking doesn't sound bad" I speak to myself like a mad man.
I hate f e e l i n g s
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A/N 'Twas a short chapter but hey! I got a lot of things to update ya'll on ~
So. I'm finally on summer and finished my first year in animation and illustration 🙌🏽 second of all I'm on a steady progress to recovery (ngl I'm scared to relapse so badly) like lemme tell you, shit went worse after my boyfriend at the time broke up with me. My weight went from 41kg to 38kg within 2 weeks after the breakup, this was from previously loosing 6kg. So as you could've probably figured out, the doctors were worried.
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT!? I'm over crying, I'm over the heartbreak, over him, done with the college so now I just need to think about how I'm leaving for Philippines in a month 🙌🏽 I haven't been home in so long 😰
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Friends with benefits : Park Jimin
Hayran Kurgu⚠️ smut alert, hard stans only⚠️ After a one night stand with Jimin, your childhood friend, could your friendship with him get anymore complicated? *** Like an angel and devil on either of my shoulders, my conscience fights against one another 'N...
