Poems (Discontinued)

#16

(Warning, if this even seems slightly triggering please stop reading I don't want anyone to feel upset by any of these,  depressing and mentions of anxiety)

I can't help this anxiety, my heart is racing and I don't know why

I don't want to be alive, keep on breathing

Sometimes I don't see the point in living with everyday being a constant pain

I don't want to live this way

Why can't you see that I'm hurting and your the one causing it

I can't get you out of my head I see you everywhere I go

Why can't leave me alone and go away but I also want you to stay

This is my constant anxiety feeling like I'm not good enough

Not for you, go away, wait please stay

I'm such a mess can't stop these thoughts from racing through my head

My heart is racing blood is pumping I can't breathe why can't you just leave me alone

Go away, please stay, I don't know what to do

I want to get away from you but I want you to pull me closer

Hold me tight tell me everything is alright, but I know it's a lie

I don't see the point in living if I'm not with you but I want to get away as fast as I can

And just run away from it all but I know I'll just end up coming back

Falling in my knees living with this constant anxiety, why I can't I breathe

I can't take it anymore, just leave me here alone

Wait don't go hold me close, go away and don't even look at me

I can't think straight, why is my mind such a mess

I just want to lay here in my bed and stare at nothing be alone with the voices in my head

Why can't I do anything right, hurt you, hurt myself

An endless cycle going 'round and 'round

Go away

Please come back

I can't help this anxiety attack

Just leave me be

Pull me closer

And let me alone