Young Love {S.M}

Chapter 22

I woke up exhausted. I slept, but not well. I tossed and turned all night. I would wake up about every 30 minutes. All I wanted was to sleep and I didn't get it. That's a common theme occurring in my life lately.

I looked at the clock that read 7:30. I rolled my eyes. I want to sleep, but there is no way I'm going back to sleep now. I grabbed my clothes and undergarments and went to the bathroom.

I shut the door and turned on the shower so the water could get warm. I stripped of my clothes and jumped into the warm shower. It relaxed my tense muscles. I sighed out of relaxation. This is something I needed.

After about 20 minutes I turned off the water, dried myself off and rapped my hair in a towel. I put on my jeans and one of Matt's sweatshirt. 

I brushed my teeth and took down my hair from the towel. I plugged in my blow dryer and dried my hair. I didn't feel like a full face of makeup so I put on some mascara and a little lipgloss.

I walked out of the bathroom to see Matthew still asleep. Shocker. I looked at the clock and it read 8:15. I have nothing to do, and I know nobody is awake right now.

I got my phone and lied down on the bed. I scrolled through Instagram for about an hour, distracting myself from my own thoughts. That was until my stomach began to growl.

I decided to go to breakfast downstairs. I grabbed a pen and paper, and wrote a note to Matt telling him I will be at breakfast in the lobby.

I grabbed my phone and my bag and headed to the elevator. I pressed the one button and waited, hoping no one would come into the elevator with me. Luckily no one did. The door opened and I smelt the amazing smell of pancakes.

I grabbed a plate and went to the buffet. I got one pancake, eggs, bacon, and a biscuit. I grabbed some butter and syrup and sat down at an empty table.

I was about halfway done with my meal when I heard someone call my name.

"Ansen?"

I turned back to see Cameron walking towards me. Before I knew it he was sitting in the chair in front of me. Gosh, not now.

"Good morning beautiful." He said causing me to smile.

"Good morning Cam." I said.

I looked at him and could tell something was on his mind. "What's up Cam?" He sighed. "Its just...I'm sorry for causing all this drama. I didn't want to do this, all I wanted was you. I know it was very stupid of me to act the way I did, but when you love someone that you can't have, that's what you do. You go practically crazy, you can't think right. You do things you would never do. So I'm here to say I'm sorry. Whatever you choose I'll support you. Forgive me?" His words warmed my heart.

I reached across the table, and placed my hand in his.

"Of course I forgive you." He smiled. "So where exactly does this leave us?"  I sighed and leaned back in my chair. Couldn't we have just left it at that. We are both on good terms. Why do we have discuss this drama right now? Why can't we enjoy the moment?

"I don't really know. I'm not going to lie to you and say that I don't care about you, but you know I love Shawn." My eyes began to water. When I agreed to come on tour with my brother I thought I'd be a fun and exciting time of my life, but it has turned out to be the most stressful time of my life.

He sighed in response. "Just give me some time, okay?" He smiled and nodded his head. He stood and and reached his arms out to me, signaling a hug. I got up and hugged him.

"I'm gonna go back up to my room. I'll see you later Cam." I got out of his grip and walked to the elevator. The elevator reached our floor and the door opened, revealing a sad Shawn. His hair was messy and his eyes bloodshot.

"I was just coming down to find you. C-can we talk?" I gave him a weak smile and nodded. "We can go to my room to talk. I'll just tell Matthew to leave. I mean if that's fine with you?" He chuckled. "Yeah, that'll be fine."

I grabbed the key out of my bag and unlocked the door. Matthew was on the bed watching tv. He saw us both and immediately got up.

"Do you guys want some privacy?" We both nodded. He gave us both a weak, but warm smile. He kissed my forehead and left.

"So what'd-"

"Listen Ansen. I stayed up all night thinking about this, and I just want you to know if you choose Cam I understand. It'll be hard and it'll hurt, but it'll be something I will have to live with because I've been a jerk, and I haven't been everything you need. But no matter what you choose I always want to be friends. Ansen, I could not go without you in my life. Let's not let this whole thing cause things to get awkward between us. I care for you too much." He said taking my petite hands in his larger one.

"If you choose him we definitely will still be friends. And if you choose me...well, you will make me the happiest man alive. But don't choose based on hurting either one of our feelings. Choose who is right for you, who you truly love Ansen. We both want the best for you. I couldn't live knowing you chose the wrong person. And please take as long as you need, hun. I love you." I attacked him in a hug. He chuckled.

Even though I've hurt him he's still there for me. It means a lot. I don't think you understand what it's like unless you've been in this situation yourself.

It's like your brain is constantly thinking about them both. A piece of your heart is with them both. Most people would say just choose who you love, but it's not as easy as it seems. That's why I'm thankful for Shawn. It's nice to have another person to lean back on

"Thank you Shawn. It means a lot." "No problem, but I better go get ready. We are all going out today." Excitement filled me. "Really, where?" He smiled. "We're gonna eat lunch first, then go to the mall, play glow in the dark mini golf, and lastly go to the movies." I smiled.

"That sounds amazing. I'll see you then." He smiled "See ya then." He waved goodbye and left.

I can't wait for the rest of today. I smiled packing my bag for the day.

A/N: Who do you think she is going to pick? Thanks for reading. Love ya.