Silently crying

Part 13

•TRIGGER WARNING•
Simons POV
As everyone settled down in to their separate beds except Jj and vikk, who where staying together, I cleaned the kitchen and placed the plates back in to their places. Once I finished I walk back in to the living room. I again started to clean in there when I started to feel funny. Almost upset in a way. As the wave crashed over my weak body the only thing I could think of doing was laying in my bed and not leaving. Why was these feeling happening again. Everyone else was better. Why not me? I started to ask myself and I stomped my way to the dark pit I never wanted to emerge from again.

I placed myself on my bed which seamed to sink in place, ready for me to implant myself in it and not leave for a while. I fall back as my head rests in the place it like and pull my abnormally large limbs on to the bed and place them, in their places. I was fully on my bed as the feeling inside my Body started beating at the wall of my brain, like they were trying to make me upset. Leave me alone. I'm tired! I shout eternally. The thoughts started to get louder with every plead for them to stops.

It had been an hour since the thoughts had started and they are only just getting worse. They won't leave alone. My scarred body disappeared when I first came here. Won't hurt to try and make new ones. As this thought came across me I bolted up from my position to grab what was necessary for this action and started making, what seemed to be beautiful markings. But to everyone else they are disgusting cries for help, but to be honest they wasn't wrong at all.

As this was going on I finished, put the tool back and wiped my face of tears. I pulled my sleeves down and decided to rest. Maybe they would stop then. But there was still voice in the back of my head saying "You shouldn't of given in to your temptation... damn it Simon why?"