Dear Agony

pt. xxx

I felt utterly helpless, as if everything I had ever known had been ripped away from me. My only solace was in shedding tears, hoping to somehow wash away the pain and confusion. You witnessed my downfall, my struggle to pick up the pieces and find myself once more. I was left with nothing and no one.

But you, you were different.

You stayed by my side, a constant presence in the chaos. You promised me everything would be okay, though I knew deep down it was just a comforting lie. I tried to push you away, but you were stubborn. You refused to leave.

And slowly, you made me believe.

For years, we were together and you made me truly happy. You made me loved the idea of permanent. I knew you were the one, the person I wanted to spend the rest of my days with. And just when I was ready to take that step, to say "yes!" —

God took you away too.

- and this agonizing phase welcomes me again.