The Bad Guy (a Prinxiety fanfic)

Birthday Part 1

I wake up and try to move, but Roman's arms are wrapped tightly around me. Hmmm, I'll stay here. His warmth is pleasurable. I lay back down and close my eyes, trying to go back to sleep, but of course, the fucking asshole wakes up. I groan and we both sit up, his arms now wrapped around my waist, making me face him. Motherfucker.

He smiles. "Good morning."

I rub my eyes and mumble, "It's way too early to get up."

"You don't even know what time it is."

"Any time is too early to get up."

He chuckles and says, "Is it too early to sing?"

I groan. "Do I have to?"

"Yes."

He gives me a bright big smile and I can't resist. I sigh and say, "Fine."

"Yay!" He squeals like the five year old he is.

I grab my guitar and check the tune, then start to play a song.

"I am a total mess
And I feel so depressed
People say, 'You'll get over it'
But I'm still stuck in this dark pit
Can someone please come save me
And drag me out of here

This sadness is all I bare
And now I don't even care
I'm used to the looks, the stares
But it's okay for I won't always stay
Someday I will leave this place
And meet God's grace
This disease will kill me
So just let me be
Let me be free
Let it be, let it be
Let it kill me
Watch it eat me away
Watch me fade away
For I won't always stay
No, I won't always stay

I have a feeling inside
That's telling me to die
I try to turn away, I try to resist
But the darkness is so insisting
But I push it back, I keep on resisting
But knowing me, nothing is working
So all I beg is for the Glory One to save me
And to break this slavery of piled scars
Help me now, I've made it this far

This sadness is all I bare
And now I don't even care
I'm used to the looks, the stares
But it's okay for I won't always stay
Someday I will leave this place
And meet God's grace
This disease will kill me
So just let me be
Let me be free
Let it be, let it be
Let it kill me
Watch it eat me away
Watch me fade away
For I won't always stay
No, I won't always stay

Overlap me in your warmth
And bring me close to your hearth
When I escape the black
I always take one step back
Ambition is what I lack
Watch my tears stack and stack
Ya'll tell me to chill, but I can't, I'm on a standstill
I'm stuck in this hole, now fill it with cement
That's right, I'm tired of this dreading scent
Close my eyes, never open them again
I know that
The world is wrong
But I couldn't stay strong

This sadness is all I bare
And now I don't even care
I'm used to the looks, the stares
But it's okay for I won't always stay
Someday I will leave this place
And meet God's grace
This disease will kill me
So just let me be
Let me be free
Let it be, let it be
Let it kill me
Watch it eat me away
Watch me fade away
For I won't always stay
No, I won't always stay

I am
Beautifully insane
And we're all
Insane in the membrane
But it's okay for I don't want to stay
Now shut the fuck up and let me die
Tonight is my last night
Please don't cry
Just let me die
Goodnight"