Diaries of an Impossible Girl

Diary entry two

Dear Diary

Thanks to Dr. Anthro-Tano for the help in beginning my beat, please read her fanfiction she is brilliant, happy to have her support.

From now on, every diary entry will start like this: my name is Clara Oswin Oswald. I travel with a man called the Doctor in what I call the snog box, but he calls it the TARDIS. Yes, it does stand for something: Time And Relative Dimension In Space. Today, I write about the adventure we had inside and outside the TARDIS.

It has been four weeks since my last entry, which was also my first one. I wonder why he takes so long to take me along on another adventure. I love traveling with him, but I guess even though he is the last of his kind, he still needs to do some things alone. Anyways, good news: while lying in bed on my iPod singing along to my favorite song, "Wink and A Smile." The Doctor called me today, saying he will be picking me up. What a treat it would be to meet the composer who wrote this fantastic song. I was curious as to where the inspiration for it came from. Why I wanted to know it is because this is the song my mom and dad danced to before my mom died. This is the song I always dreamed of dancing to at my wedding. I was about to research it when I heard the sounds of the TARDIS. I looked up at the security monitor and saw the TARDIS appear. I still wanted to investigate the song, so I took my laptop with me and rushed out the door and into the TARDIS.

When I entered the TARDIS, I could not believe my ears. The TARDIS was blaring the song I was researching, and each lyric echoed through the TARDIS. The Doctor suddenly pops out and pulls me into a dance as he sings along with it, smoothly going together with the words:

"Well, you can't have a dream And cut it to fit, but when I saw you, I knew we'd go together Like a wink and a smile."

The doctor was spinning me around the TARDIS so much that when he let me go, I was so dizzy I was about fall right on my face, but there was the doctor about to catch my fall, and I couldn't help but ask,

"Do you know this song?"

Doctor replied. "Know it? I love it! It's one of my favorite songs. How about you, my dear Clara?"

"Doctor, this is the song that my mother and father danced to before she died."

Then everything stops: him dancing, the music, even his smile turned into a frown. I could see the guilt hovering over him as he could hear the tone in his voice saying,

"I apologize, how insensitive of me, Clara. The beauty of this song was distracting me."

I sighed tapped on his back, before I kissed him on the cheek and said, "Thank you, though it is cosmic how I was thinking about this song and wanted to know everything about this song: how it was created and everything. It's just when I listen to this song, and it reminds of my mom and how she lights up a room with a wink and smile."

The doctor smirked, "So does that mean I am forgiven?"

"Yes, you are forgiven, so where are you taking me, my time traveler?"

Seeing the light on his face, I knew something up his sleeve. That's when he told me, "Close your eyes. Where we're going is a surprise." I closed my eyes and heard the sounds of the TARDIS yelling along with the song "A Wink and A Smile" turn back now as singing along with the first verse and course.

I remember the days of just keeping time of hanging around In sleepy towns forever

Back roads, empty for miles Well, you can't have a dream And cut it to fit, but when I saw you, I knew we'd go together Like a wink and a smile.

By the time I sang the first verse and chorus, everything was quiet once more, and all I can hear was the voice of the Doctor. He said, "Follow me, my sweet Clara, as a surprise is waiting for you behind these TARDIS doors."

Keeping my eyes closed, I felt him take my hand, also feeling the warmth of his touch. It was delightful. We talk for about two minutes before we stop, and he asks me to take off my flip flops. I did as what I was told, and I knew that we were still on the TARDIS because I could feel the coldness of the floor, then we continued to walk. I heard the Doctor open the TARDIS doors, and then one step later, I felt the texture of the floor change into a warm and soft texture. Then I felt the doctor come up behind me, putting his warm hands onto my already closed eyes, and I could feel his breath brushing my skin as heard him whisper to me,

"A wink and A smile remind me of you, every time I hear it, now open your eyes to see why."

He lifts his hands off my eyes, and when I open, I see we were at an ocean. The sun was setting wherein the sea she was, and her parents young and herself watching them dance. I started to cry. The doctor began to tell me a story.

Once upon a time, June 1991, a young couple decide to travel and see the world, because the woman didn't have much time left, they always dream about seeing the ocean, so they went along with their daughter to Baltimore, where there were amazing views of the sea, as the daughter watched her parents dancing she wanted to dance with them, but she was afraid to ask. However, the mother saw her feeling left out, so she let out a whistle, her daughter looked up to see her mother give a wink and a smile telling to join them, she smiled and rushed over to them, their joy is consumed they don't know that two men named, Marc Shaiman & Ramsey McLean were walking along and seeking inspiration for a new scene for the movie Sleepless in Seattle and when the mother gives that wink and smile they thought of the perfect song to write for the film,

I was in awe, crying tears of joy. I couldn't believe my mother was the inspiration for the song I adore with all my heart. I couldn't contain my happiness any longer as I turned towards him with a broad smile and squealed,

"DOCTOR, YOU ARE THE GREATEST MAN THE FACE OF THE EARTH, AND I LOVE YOU!"

Before the doctor could use another word, I bounced on the doctor, knocking us both down onto the warm sand and I KISSED HIM, I KISSED THE DOCTOR, AND I THINK HE KISSED ME BACK!

Before I can tell if the doctor was kissing me back, he pulled me away rushed back into the TARDIS, as he screamed at without looking back,

"It's time that I take you home now."

I slowly followed him to back to the TARDIS as no longer had tears of joy were tears of heartbreak.

As we entered into the TARDIS, I screamed,

"What did I do wrong!"

He murmured, "You did nothing wrong, I did, I shouldn't be acting this way, not again."

I went towards him, trying to face him, but he wouldn't look at me, so I pleaded, "Doctor, look at me, please."

He looked at me with pain in his face, and I told him, "Doctor, I know it is hard for you to love, after losing much, but you are entitled to love someone and that someone can be me."

The doctor said, nothing, I sighed and grabbed his hand as I said, "But no matter what, whatever you decide, I will always be here. The choice is up to you."

I left the Doctor to gather in his thoughts. I began to feel lightheaded, and my head started to hurt. I heard a strange voice whisper,

"Thank you, my dear Clara, thanks to you, all three of us, including the doctor, are going to have some fun" then he made a sinister laugh. I tried to shake it off, but I started to yawn. I felt very sleepy so sleepy I fell into the doctor's arm, which strangely felt his to lay on top on me, then I thought something is not right.