Dont Forget Me [Niall Horan] ON HOLD

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A M Y

Evelyn had visited.

My sister. She visited.

Surprisingly, she hadn't fangirl end over the fact Niall Horan was staying with me. In fact she told me, that she knew it'll be a horrible thing to do, and that fangirling would not be reasonable when he has cancer.

She had gotten me roses. Roses. They were one of the only flowers I knew the name of, I'm not a florist so I don't know.

Evelyn was like a twin but older.

We both had the same golden brown hair, large green eyes, and nose. The only difference was I looked like a skeleton and she was a healthy 19 year old girl and she was taller. We used to be told that we looked so alike, I'm sure if we ever walked out of this hospital, people might think I'm a totally different person, or even anorexic.

Evelyn's visit was cut short. She had to return to college. I understand, I mean people can't spend all their time with me right?

I've understood that from the start, reality had hit me in the face at an early age. I knew one day my parents will be gone, that I'll have to survive on my own. But maybe it's the other way around now, maybe I'm the one leaving this earth. It's scary, but it may be the truth.

"Amy?"

I looked up at Niall. "Yeah?"

"I was out, and I got you this..."

He handed me a teddy bear, he knew my love for teddy bears. Even though I had tons, I always wanted more. Currently I only have two in this hospital room. Teddy bears make me feel less lonely. And their cuddly.

"Niall if there's a god in this world....why hadn't he saved us and our family. Why is he letting this disease eat us alive?"

"I don't know Amy, I don't know, I'm waiting for the day were told that were free of cancer."

"This disease isn't just hurting us...it's hurting our families. Niall, this horrible disease was founded hundreds of thousands of years ago! Why isn't there a cure yet?" I cried.

All the people who died of cancer, it left their families in devastation. Some parents lost their jobs over depression, some even started doing jobs. And if your luckily, then you might just be able to be strong enough to last the rest of your life.

Niall hugged me. Tears streamed down his cheek too.

I never realized I was crying.

"This cancer thing is really getting to me. I can't stay strong" I said.

"I just...I worked so hard for the X factor, to become who I was...and now cancer might just be taking it all away from me!"

"I just... you know the book...the fault in our stars?"

"Yeah..."

"It's a sad book. I really loved it. It had to do with cancer, and it was just amazing...".

"Maybe one day we can be like them...as adorable as them."

"Niall" I looked up into his tearful blue eyes, and I felt a pain go through my heart. I caused this. I made him cry.

"You believe we'll be together...?"

"I know this is a bit early, but your a cool person, sweet, loving, kind. I like you."

"I like you too Niall...but what if we can never be together?"

Niall wiped his tears and then mine.

"Amy stop thinking of the negative and start thinking of the positive. We'll go this together. We'll stay strong."

I placed my head in Niall's arms.

"Niall, promise me something."

"Anything."

"If I die, please never forget me."

"I promise."

A tear ran down his cheek.

"But why are you so intent that you'll die?"

I closed my eyes,

"Because leukemia might not be the only cancer I have anymore."

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