Me? I'm irrelevant

Prologue

My life doesn't seem to matter. No one asked how I am doing or what is going on in my life. People who know me only ask about my brother. They always have since he left to go on tour. But even if you didn't know me you still you wouldn't ask about me.  You wouldn't even acknowledge me. Some times I wish everyone wouldn't acknowledge me. 

For those that do not know my name is Aspen Hood. My brother is Calum Hood bassist of 5 Seconds of Summer. The second most famous band in the world. He hasn't been home in three years. He hasn't even tried to contact me. It's like he has just forgot all about me and his family. 

Calum has missed a lot of events. Our mother died 2 months ago and Calum didn't come to the funeral. My father takes his pain out on me. I was almost raped 1 1/2 months ago by my own father. Luckily I was able top escape and find a way for him to not get to me at night. My life has definitely not been the same since Calum left three years ago.  But maybe it was for the better that he got to go and live his dream. 

But what no one knows about me is that I started cutting 2 months ago after my mums death. I couldn't take the pain it caused me. Its just a way I can release everything that has happened to me. It takes my pain away.  It makes me feel a small amount of something.  At this point in my life I don't feel anything anymore. It also doesn't help that my father abuses me. He blames me everyday for both my mum and Calum leaving. I can see the Calum part; but I can't see my mums part. How was I suppose to stop her from getting sick. I couldn't do much. 

There is not much I can do about my situation at this moment. I am forced to be in this house with him. Besides where would I go? I have no one that wants me. Everyone that I thought cared about left me. So yes most of the time I feel like my father is right. It is my fault that everyone leaves. 

Maybe I deserve everything that I get. My brother leaving and not coming back or having any contact... My fault... My mother dying... My fault....My father abusing me....My fault...

It all leads back to me. Maybe everything will just be better if I would just end it. No one wants me...

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A/N: Hey everyone, I am trying this new story out but before I continued writing and posting it I wanted to get yalls opinion about this story just from what I have so far. I am definitely willing to post more chapter to give you guys a better feel for the story. But feedback would mean the world to me.