It's been five months since James and I last went out. And I miss him so much. I know that he doesn't miss me. And that he's probably still angry with me being the insensitive person that I am. I tried to forget about him, telling myself that I can do better. But all of the things I say and do to forget him were all in vain.
I am not hoping to bring back what we had. All I want is a clean slate. When we went out, I showed him someone who I thought he would want. I lied about myself. I lied about who I really am. And when he found out, it was too late.
Only I know the one truth in our short liaison. He needs to know that.
I need closure. And that's what I'm vying for tonight.
