I couldn't believe what I had just seen. I started to whimper, trying not to cry, and as soon as Johnny heard me, his eyes shot open and he pushed her away. I threw his studded jacket to the ground by his feet before he had a chance to grab me, and ran. I ran as fast as I could, trying to get away. I thought I loved him. What the fuck was I thinking? I've only known him for a couple months. Stupid fucking me letting me get my stupid fucking feelings in the way again. The next thing I knew, I was outside my house. Had I really just ran all the way home? I didn't really care. I just went into the house, and ran into the basement. I knew nobody would find me down there. I didn't want to be bothered. My phone had been blowing up the whole way home, probably just fucking Johnny. I didn't give a damn about what he wanted, so I checked and there was other messages, they were all from the girls asking me where I had went. I told them I had left. Only Serena asked why, I told her what happened and she was furious. She told me all about the blonde girl, she was Johnny's ex, who had treated him like he wasn't worth the piss under her shoes. They hadn't talked for over two years, what she was doing at the party was unknown. I just threw my phone at the wall. I didn't want to deal with anyone anymore. I just wanted to curl up and die. I started sobbing loudly, not even trying to be quiet about it anymore, until I heard a knock in the front door. I stopped crying and held my breath. I hadn't turned on any of the lights when I came home, I just ran down here; so it probably looked like no one was home, good. I heard the door slowly open, and then boots walking across the floor. Realizing that I was still holding my breath, I quietly let out the stale air and listened.
"Maggie?" I heard him say, but didn't respond.
"Mags, I'm sorry ok? I'm not in the right state of mind." I could hear he sank to the floor directly above me. And then he started sobbing. "Maggie, please come out. I can't live without you. I know we're not even together, but that's what I was going to try to do tonight, to make you mine. I'm so sorry Mag-" he couldn't even finish his sentence, he was bawling his eyes out. He was crying so hard, so loudly. I instantly felt a pang of guilt. Once again, I was thinking of only myself. I didn't even once think to stop to hear his side of the story. I just tried running away from my problems, like I always do.
I slowly stood up, fumbling around in the dark, searching for my phone. I heard him stop sobbing and get up. "Baby, are you here somewhere?" he asked quietly, choking back his tears. I couldn't bear to hear him cry anymore, especially knowing it was my fault. But also, I just couldn't speak. I slowly and solemnly made my way up the basement stairs, he was waiting for me at the top. I just stared my feet, I couldn't bring myself to look at him. Tears pricked the corners of my eyes, and started falling to the floor. "No, babe, no. Please don't cry, Maggie." Johnny sniffled, pulling me into his chest and holding me there like it was the last time he would ever see me.
They just wouldn't let up, the tears kept coming and coming. I was so glad he was here with me, even though he was upset and so was I. He repeatedly kissed the top of my head and rubbed circles on my back as he held me, whispering sweet nothings into my ear, calming me down. And to be honest, I wouldn't have had it any other way. I loved him like I've known him forever, even though it's only been 5 months.
JOHNNY POV
When she had finally finished crying I raised her face up to look at me. I kissed her forehead, then both of her eyes, then her cheeks and her nose, and finally, I kissed her lips. It only lasted a second, and then I looked her in the eyes.
"Maggie, I-"
"love you, Johnny." she said as she looked into my eyes. But not only was she looking into my eyes, it felt like she was looking through my soul. And we just stood there like that, for about 10 minutes. Staring into each others eyes, searching, communicating without even saying a word. After a while, I broke off the contact and smiled at her. She was so beautiful, even if she had just got done crying and her eyes were all puffy and red. She was perfect, and I'd take her anyway I could. I went to kiss her again, but this time she cupped my face and pulled my lips to hers, crashing them together. It wasn't a sexual kiss, not lusty at all. It was needy, like she needed me to stay alive. Because I sure as hell know that I need her to keep me alive.
As we were kissing, a car swung into the driveway, and people got out and ran up to the house. I could only assume that it was the guys, worried about Maggie and I. She broke off the kiss and looked up to me and smiled.
"I should let them in..." she whispered, and proceeded to walk over to the door. As soon as she opened it, the guys all poured in, wrapping their arms around her, kissing her on top of the head, and asking what was wrong. I went by them, and wrapped my arm around her waist. She rested her head against my shoulder and started crying again.
"Mags why are you crying again? Calm down, hun." I spoke softly into her ear, I looked at her face and saw a smile. She looked up to me and her smile widened, she is so beautiful.
"It makes me so happy that I have you guys here for me. I can't even express it enough. I've never had a family like this. I'd just die if you guys left me like Frank did... " she told us as she wiped away her tears.
"Margie poo, we could never leave you," Jimmy stated, bending down to meet her eyes, and grabbing her face. "you're too important to lose. Maggie, I'm sorry for whatever you've gone through, but we will never let you down. Do you understand me, young lady?"
She giggled at the last part and nodded. "I love you, Jim Jams. And the rest of you guys, you and your girlfriends."
