A New Beginning

Part 3, Make a Decision

All goes the same as the night before. Dad goes to work, I watch TV until I pass out, I have a nightmare. This one is about my cousin getting killed by a demon like it's the Groundhog Day movie and because I tried to save him the demon comes for me. Once again I crawl in dad's bed and sleep until we go to breakfast the next morning.

"Since I only have one day left here Dad I think we should talk about my living arrangement."

"What is it that you want to do?"

"Well I... I don't really know" I lied "I thought you were going to decide."
I wanted to move in with Layla but I didn't want to abandon my dad especially now that I know he has had suicidal issues and he hasn't seen the twins in weeks. I'm his last child nay last loved one he has around. Imagine being an 18 year old with that weight on your shoulders.

"Nope this is up to you, it's your decision."

"Okay then" I say with all the pros and cons my decision could have racing through my mind. I know he wants me to stay with him whether he admits it or not but I can't handle all the issues that follow him anymore. Tears start to build mostly cause I'm an emotional mess but also because I can't seem to make a desicion.

"Memzy what's wrong?"

I shake my head with a smile and force the tears away.

" Mackenzie as it turns out I've known you your whole life and I know when something's wrong."

" I want to live with Layla but I don't want to leave you cause I don't want you to hurt yourself" I blurt out quickly so he can't hear the trembling in my voice from the suppressed crying.

" Mackenzie you don't have to worry about me I will be okay. It's only 2 weeks until we get the apartment, you should go live with Layla if that's what will make you happy. I need to worry about you not vice versa."

With sudden relief from his supportive answer silent tears fall as a smile slowly grows across my face.

"Thanks Dad"

Because my life is hella boring the day is exactly like the one before. When I get home after the lake, instead of an epic battle my dad takes me to dinner. We have a good time together that night knowing Layla was picking me up in the morning.
I woke up a bit earlier today so I can pack my bag which didn't take as long as expected so I decided to get cleaned up for the day. I brush out my long brown hair before putting it in a high pony. Typically I wear contacts but today I put on my red glasses because they make my hazel eyes pop a bit more. I was seeing Layla for the first time in what felt like forever. Long story short Zoe hated her so much that nobody was allowed to like her, that got to the point where my five year old self would get whooped for calling Layla mom so I grew up calling her by her name, thats why it's hard for me to call her mom now but I'll have to get used to it again if I'm living with her. I eat breakfast with my dad before we check out and Lay- er my mom comes and picks me up.

"You nervous?"

"What?"

"Are you nervous to see Layla?"

"Man I packed my feelings so far away I don't even know what I'm feeling."

"Which brings me to another topic, you start therapy on Tuesday. I've been going and I'm making Raven go. I think you'll benefit from it."

"But if I have to go to therapy that means I have problems and I don't have problems because I'm fine, enough."

"I know you're having issues dealing with your emotions and everything that's gone on so talking to an unbiased third person will help you sort some things out."

"Okay fine I'll go but I honestly don't think he can do anything to help me. I know what will help with all my emotional issues, one good punch to Zoe's nose" I say contently.

He lifts his eyebrow at me
"I raised you better than that."

"I know" I say as I roll my eyes.

My phone buzzes in my pocket. "I'm here."
"Dad she's here." I say while standing to grab my bag.
We had outside and I put my stuff in the trunk as she gets out of the car to talk to my dad.
"Hey Alan" she says with an awkward smile.

"Hi. So Mackenzie is going to stay with you for now, we'll play it by year and see what happens with moving into the apartment."

"Okay, anything else?"

"She has therapy on Tuesday make sure she goes, also she's studying for the GED so keep on top of her and make sure she doesn't slack off."
He turns to look at me

"I want updates on you, school, therapy, everything okay."

"Okay" I say as I hug him
"I love you"

"I love you too angel."
With that we get in our separate cars and part ways.