ALWAYS

chapter 3

Louis' POV

"Sunday you left me. I'd never get that same feeling when you would come home and kiss me. I miss you, I know you don't. If I could stop you from leaving and convince you that I would never hurt you..... I would. But that's not an option, I miss you Lou, and you don't know how long I've waited to say that." He cried but I've cried long enough to not feel his pain anymore. 

I walked up to him and hugged him. I missed him too, but I moved on. I moved on to someone else, someone that I see a future with, someone that I want to have children with. I'm fortunate to have someone like Harry, but I lost the love I had for him when I moved away to college and found Alex.

"You'll always be in my heart styles. I'll always love you, but you're not the one. It's Alex, she gives me a reason to wake up and live another day. I want you both, and I'll always love you more, but she is the one I'm going to stick with. She was there when you broke up with me and the band had to go solo."

My heart was torn between them, but I knew for sure Harry was only going to bring me down.

"Please, don't leave again. I can't take it if you leave again." His voice was sympathetic and I was sure I was going to cry. I looked away from him and held it all together. I walked away with tears in my eyes. I heard him sniffling and his cries sounded muffled. I looked back wiping a tear away.

Liam was with him

I... I don't know why I didn't stay. Should I go back? I stayed there facing my car window. Liam was still with Harry and soon, I was not alone.

"C'mon man what was that?" It was Niall. He saw that I was crying and held me. This was hard for me to walk away from him when he always walked away from me.

"Why is it so hard. I thought it was going to be easy." The tears flooded Niall shirt. 

"I thought it was easy to throw someone like that away, he did it so much I didn't know it hurt this bad." My heart. It's breaking. I feel it.

"You know that every time he left, he didn't leave." I looked at him confused. 

"He would dive away from the parking lot because he knew you were watching. Drive around the block. Go back in the parking lot and sleep in his other apartment which was right next to yours. He had a bed pushed up against the wall to be as close to your bed as possible. So no, he never left. It was just an illusion." 

He never left. But why did it feel like he did? I need to leave before he sees me crying. I know that once I see him I'll want to take him back, but I can't hurt Alex like that. She knows my past with Harry and I begged her to try again with me after she found me in bed with him, only because she thought it was a girl.

"I need to go." I got in my car and drove back to Alex's place. When I got there the door was locked. I called Alex but she didn't answer. I called her again.

"Hello?" Her voice.

"Alex?" There was silence.

"The key is under the mat." She sounded annoyed or upset. I couldn't tell she hung up before I could say bye. I pick up the mat and put the key in the knob. The place was nice and warm.

I sat down on the couch and held my head on my hands. I should call Harry, I should talk out what happened between us. But... I'm afraid, I'm afraid that when I see him I'll go back to him. And as much as I love Him, I'll always choose Alex. I don't know why but something is telling me to stay with her.