Heart To Heart

text

i remember

the first time we talked.

i texted you first

not expecting a reply.

we talked for a bit

then you had to rest

but i laid awake

dreaming but not sleeping.

we talked again

the very next day

I texted you first

not expecting a reply

but I got one

we talked for a bit

then you had to go eat

and I smiled to myself

happy.

we talked some more

the next few days

I was no longer expecting

no reply

but then one day

I decided to try

something new.

so I didn't text you.

I carried my phone

everywhere

I lied in bed

staring

waiting

hoping.

and finally

at 2 am

I realized

you wouldn't text me.

so the next day

i text you

receive an instant reply.

my stomach jumps

to the beat of my ringtone.

we talked for a bit

then you had to go

yet again

leaving me

to ponder.

and so ponder i did.

I thought about you

about me

about us.

is there even an us?

and the next day I text you again

but

you don't

answer.

I waited

waited

waited

but still

no

reply.

you answer at 4am

I am fast asleep

but I awake

and answer

almost immediately.

and that night

we talked

for hours.

and the next night as well.

I was losing sleep

but

I was desperate.

I looked forward

to our daily talks

and decided

once again

to try something new

so I didn't text you.

and you didn't text me.

maybe

I thought

you were expecting a text

from me.

but I didn't text you.

and you still didn't text me.

so 3 days went

and never

did my phone

so much

as vibrate.

you never did text me.

and I spend a night

engulfed

in my own

tears.

i cried a bit

just a bit

and then I cried harder.

and I waited

for a text

from you.

but it never came.

it never came.