The girl from the bar

Part 9

Lauren's POV
  I got in my car with Lucy in the passenger sit without saying any word. "Laur?". For the sudden a tear came down like I feel my heart breaking why would I said that now? And not from the beginning. Like Maybe is because I wanted to let all my past behind and start again with Camz. She being my first girlfriend  and my first everything. But maybe she is not my first but I swear to God that she is gonna be my last. I can't see another girl anymore my eyes are only on Camila. "You know sometimes is good to let it out". "I don't know what to feel I feel like I disappointed her". Just by the way she looked at me I knew I disappointed her. "Lauren think about it how would you feel if You think that Camila was going to be your first and the first for her as well and for the sudden she tells you that she has being hooking up with a lot of girls?". "Are you always that honest?". "Is reality Lauren but tell me how would you feel?". "Mad, sad, heart broken that's not the thing, Lucy is the fact that before we came to meet you I asked her". "You asked her to be your girlfriend?!". I  nod "Aw Lauren I'm so sorry but aye you know you are not the only one in trouble right?". I looked at her "She knows I lied". "Oh yeah why you lied tho". "Believe me I was buying you time to live"she say making me giggle. "No but honestly I lied because it was getting weird and that is past isn't?". "Yes and thank you". "For?". "For being honest with me". "No problem.Let's get something to eat".
   We got some burgers from McDonalds and took it to my house since Veronica is not answering her phone. I wonder what they are doing. "Still not answering?". "No she is mad probably she is eating, you should text Camila tho". "What should I text her?". "Lauren don't be dummy text her how you feel like let your heart talk". Just one day with Lucy has made me realize a lot of things about friendship. I did text Camz but she hasn't reply. I was checking my phone every five seconds. "Give her time".
  "Oh I was going to tell you remember what you told me about probably one of the girls I used to you know would like make my life impossible?". She nod "So when I went out Camz picked me up right? And Normani was with Sarah looking at Camila". "For real? But what happened with Normani isn't she like your bff since for ever?". "She never acted like one to be honest like she never helped me in anything and I just figured out why". She was waiting for it eating her fries. "She likes me". "No shit"she say sarcastic smiling . I was confused giggling . "Yup so One day I was in the restroom and she was talking to this cheerleader about a party so she could invite you as her partner or something like that". I burst laughing "Aye I was scared what if you came in and saw me and beat me up like hell no". "Is okay and stop reminding me that tho I really regret that like look at you if I should it know you were like this ufff". "We could be friends before? Nah". "Aye opposites attract no? Or something like that" we both giggle. We finish our meals "What time it is?". "12:30am". "Can you take me home ? Vero has to be there already". I stand up to take my keys "You think?". "Well probably". We get in my car "How weird was that they knew each other already". "Oh my gosh I know right when Vero called her I was like hold up". "YES DUDE! Like when she calls her Karla I was like who the fuck is Karla". Probably is her first name or second. "Was weird but I knew Vero felt guilty about something since I met her". "Yeah but did you hear that she bully her physically and verbally and one of the things was because of attraction?". "Yeah But common Laur looked at your girl ". "If she still my girl tomorrow Lucy". "Don't be negative you like her right?". "I love her". "Then fight for her whatever happens". "You right". I parked in the house she told me. "She is not here yet"she mumble. I feel something weird in my guts. "Well thank you Lauren"she say hugging me. "No problem I'll text you alright?". She nodded getting out. How nice would it be Camila and me living together?. I check my phone to see if she text me or called me but nothing. It was the wallpaper of us together. I drove back home and get to my bed. Brrr brrr I grab my phone fast.
From Camz❤️:
I'm sorry Lauren. For how I react everybody has a past and I really do like you a lot. I just felt insecure for a second since you can cheat on me any second because of the need or something idk what am I saying but I'm sorry
Wait cheat?the need? Insecure?. Who would cheat on her?.
To Camz❤️:
Is alright Camz I would have reacted the same or worse. I get your point but I swear I am not capable of cheat on you that's dumb. Anyone could kill to be with you, Correction I would kill to be with you, to spend every second of my life with you.You are my princess I don't want to lose you for my stupid past. YOU are my present and only girl in my heart.
After I send it I read it, Wow that was cursi. But I let my emotions talked like Lucy told me and it felt good to be honest.
Probably people think this was a stupid argument but honestly it helps me understand when people say you don't know what you have until you lose it like this little argument made me realize that I Love Camila like for real I know what is Love now. I feel or I'm starting  feel guilty and embarrassed of my past like just getting pleasure and then breaking her hearts. The worse part is that I didn't care about their feelings. Thinking everything all over again gave me the phrase of I haven't done anything good in my life.