Melancholy Love || Park Jimin

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7AM

This morning when I woke up I started to feel a little dizzy, but I think it might just be not eating dinner from yesterday.

"It'll be alright." I said to myself and slowly started walking to the kitchen, and started making breakfast. Looking in the fridge there's barely any food, but only lifted with kimchi and tofu.

"Guess I can only make kimchi tofu soup!" And walk to get my apron.

some moments later...

"Finally done!!" With a cheerful voice.

Beep, the phone rings, I rushed to get the phone and slowly untying the apron from behind. I quickly get the phone and unlocked it. It's a text message from Taehyung. I open the text as fast as I could.

'Eunjin, Jimin haven't wake up yet, I'll just take care of him, so you don't have to worry.'

After reading that my heart hurts. I keep thinking 'was he drinking too much?' 'did he not feel well?' 'is he sick?' all kinds of thoughts came across my mind, just hoping that he'll be fine. I slowly walk back to the dinning table like a zombie with worries. I grab the spoon and drink some soup, putting the spoon in my mouth and sallow. After I sallow the soup, I ran to the bathroom as quick as I can, I kneel down in front of the toilet sit and started to throw up. This soup doesn't taste right. I sodded up from the toilet sit and walk to the mirror. When I see my face in front of the mirror I was a bit shook 'this doesn't look like me' In front of the mirror was a girl with pale face and dark circles. I tried to wash myself with cold water and tell myself this isn't me.

"Am I about to die?" I asked myself in front of the mirror, slowly bring my face closer and closer to the mirror. My face was nearly touching the mirror and I stopped, my hands slowly raise up and I started touching myself in the mirror. Now I look so weak, like a vampire just finished sucking my blood. I keep looking in the mirror and thinking I can't go to work like this. I put on some light makeup to cover the pale look on my face and lifted.

I closed the door and walked out of the apartment, the sunlight kinda hurt my eyes, I look up from where I was, another sunny day in Seoul I said to myself. I began walking. When I almost reach to my work place I felt dizzy again, but this time I couldn't move, this feeling made me scared, my body was feeling weak, my view started to turn blurry. Maybe the last thing I remember was someone calling me, then my view turned black and I can't remember the rest.