RAMMED | 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐮𝐞𝐝

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?

letting go was never easy, i've always had my mother to hold my hand in crowded areas, while on a bus, or trolley. i'd never imagine leaving home, especially like this, i wondered what flying would be like, would  i be scared and run back to finn? would i be happy and stare at the clouds out the window? would i be caught behind my thoughts, dwelling in the pain that were the words of fucking finn wolfhard? also why the fuck i'm being so poetic all of a sudden, i look down and stare at the feet of everyone else. i wore dirty converse, that used to be white but now suddenly a dirty faded yellow, millie wore these beautiful wedges that raised her height just a tiny bit, sadie had nice brown loafers that matched her floral jumpsuit perfectly, finn wore his normal same old black shoes, while noah stayed in his white jordan's, and gaten and caleb wearing the same pair of black vans. looking at this made me realize, realize how our shoes bring out our personalities. i just wanted food, that'd help me fe- "big mac for you, salad for you,    diet coke, fries, big mac, and side of ranch dressing for you," lindsey gasped at megan's choice as joe called out orders, me and millie shared a salad, i stared at sadie and sophia who were having an argument. "i doubt sadie meant that millie, she cares a lot, but you know how head strong she is..." millie rolled her eyes back, "i know it's just that, that she may be right, i always get mad when it comes to amy, it's just after her death and all, i broke down," millie patted me on the shoulders and walked over to sadie and took the empty seat that was jacks. "aside from you losing the necklace, i'm sorry, you're just as important as amy and i love you," she admitted, jack walked over with a look of disgust, "millie bobby brown, sitting in my seat? i think not," he sat on her lap and cooed like a baby. "it's ok, i'm sorry too," she smiled and gave a death stare to jack, jack was too busy staring at me, we smiled at each other. "bye bye jackie poo," she pushed jack off as he went tumbling over to lindsey who dropped her purse. millie's eyes went big, mine on the other hand went small, we both noticed a necklace that was sticking out of lindsey's dropped purse. "you sneaky little bi-," sadie yelled as joe held her back. "wait till after europe you ding dong, she's my responsibility right now!"