Never Again (Harry Styles)

Chapter 6- Never Again

"That reminds me." Harry reached over and raised an eyebrow as his hand hovered over my purse.

Confused I nodded and he grabbed my bag. Harry ruffled around inside before pulling out the pill bottle and putting it on the table. "I believe it is time for you to take these."

I looked and saw everyone was watching us. Liam's eyes were on the pill bottle and I saw a frown on his face.

I snatched the bottle breaking everyone's stare. I gave Harry a look. "Ok, ok. Don't need to make a bunch of dramatics over it. I'm taking the pills." I muttered before opening the bottle and shaking the pills into my hand before taking them.

"Cassie? Are those for what I think they are?" Liam asked.

"My problems weren't just going to go away Liam. You should know that. After you went to X factor it just got worse. There was a time," I paused choosing my next words carefully. "I was in a very bad place. Ok Li?!" I said desperately as I saw his face. "But I'm better now. I promise." I finished leaning over the table and trying to touch his hand.

"Can I see the bottle?" Liam asked face still pale at the realization that his childhood friend was struggling this much.

I nodded handing him the bottle from across the table. Liam took it and looked at the label curiously. "This is really strong."

"Well, I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to fix my dosage." I took the bottle back.

"To get it lowered?"

"Actually increased probably." I whispered.

There was a long silence before Liam said. "Love, you aren't back to your old habits are you?"Liam asked worriedly.

"I'm fine."

"You didn't answer the question." he pressed.

"Am I the only one confused here?" Niall asked.

"Li. Stop." I said firmly. "You know you don't want to hear that answer."

"Stand up." Liam demanded.

I sighed knowing exactly what he was doing. And there was no way I was going to get out of it. I stood. Liam then carefully analyzed me. Liam seemed happy before he grabbed my hips causing me to hiss and jerk away. "Liam!" I cried.

"How old Cass?" Liam asked and there was a look on his face that I couldn't understand.

"Liam." I plead.

"How old?"

"Before Harry and I left to come here. But you don't know everything Liam!" I cried as he started to walk away.

"No. Cassie. I-" Liam paused halfway to the door. His eyes were full of pain. "I just can't. Not right now."

"I tried to kill myself!" I shouted tearing flooding my eyes. It was the only thing that I could think of saying to keep him there. As the one person that was my rock for so long to keep him from leaving and a tear fell my breathing ragged. "July 29th, 2010 I tried to kill myself. I jump off a cliff into a lake. They found me the next morning. I was in the hospital for three months." Liam had frozen in his tracks. "I'm sorry. Liam." I stepped forward. "Please. Don't walk away. Please."

Liam stood there for a long minute and I knew that he was thinking hard. "Leyum." I pleaded once again with his nickname.

Liam took a deep breath. "What did your mom say?"

"I don't know. I didn't wake up for three days. They thought I was in a coma and mom wasn't there when I woke up. She was at home. Taking care of everyone else. All she said when she saw me up was. 'you aren't dead. what did you accomplish?' The next time I saw her was when she came to take me home." I answered..