a last note from your narrator

the difference

no matter what you do in life you have an impact. it might not be the big change you always wanted to make happen, but it's a difference.
in the end it's the constant question of 'what if i turned right instead of left?'
every single thing you do is a variable. and because of the choices you're making, the world is constantly changing.
i can understand that you want to do something important. i think everyone does. maybe we all just have a different idea of importance.
i want to do something to help people and to make me happy. but whenever i think about it, what i really want is such an unattainable goal. there's not a whole lot of places for people like me in the world. so i stop and think: what can i do if not this.
i don't have much of an answer. not right now, at least. maybe i never will.
what's important, though, is that you're still making a change. no matter how small it is. it will be important to someone somewhere.
maybe you won't be able to do that thing you've always wanted, but you'll never get anywhere if you insist it's too late and give up. you have to try for what you want and never let go of that dream.
because maybe some small difference you make today will lead to the big difference years from now. you can never know.
until then, you keep doing the things that make small differences. i promise you there are things like that, even if you don't believe it.
every day, people do things for me that make a positive impact on my life. they're making a difference. you do things like this for me all the time, i just can't really be bothered to explain it or even tell you.
when you put your heart and soul into something you love, something good will happen. you've had such a positive impact on me just through that.
and i can tell you that no matter how terrible you think you might be, you've never done anything to make me hate you. i question things sometimes, but that's just life.
you care about the people around you, and making sure they're okay. it's something i didn't realize for a long time. it's nice. and it's even more important than making some huge difference in the world. i'm sure you know how much it can help to hear a calm, grounded voice in the middle of a bad day or when everything seems to be falling apart.
it's nice to know that someone cares.
you do.
and i hope you know that i do too.
- something i'll probably never tell you.
because you often remind me too much of myself.