Worlds Apart| m.yg x p.jm

February 5

we moved in together after that. i told you i loved you and that i couldn't live without you. that i had known we were destined for each other since the day we coincidentally bumped foreheads.

you told me you loved me too. you told me i was the only thing keeping you here. you promised me you wouldn't leave me. why couldn't you keep that promise?

we moved into our own apartment where it was convenient. it was just a small ,one bedroom place but it was ours.

i want to blame this all on my self. on my ignorance to your condition. but it was just a condition. it wasn't you.

if i were to write down all the things i love about you it would take a million years. i can still here your laugh and the way your eyes disappeared behind your gummy smile.

it was all unexpected really. we were doing okay. i could tell you weren't doing well. i made myself believe we were working through it.

as weeks went by, you stopped eating regularly, you stopped functioning like a normal person.

it felt as if you weren't living, just alive. i guess you could cope.

until you couldn't.

i came home from work to find you in the bathroom. a bottle of pills in your hand and a letter in the other.

i let out sobs as i held you on the cold linoleum floor. your face was peaceful and your body was cool to the touch.

my tears fell onto your t-shirt turning it translucent. i held you in my arms for an hour before i was able to get up and call someone. i knew you were gone and i knew you wanted it that way.

i didn't want to let you go. you thought the only way to get away from the pain you couldn't stop feeling was to leave this place.
     in a way, i understand. i will still miss you everyday yoongi.