Head Over Heels

Chapter 3

    Jensen arrived at work not too long later, dressed in some clean clothes and his hair wasn't a complete mess any more.
    " Morning Jensen," said several workers who walked by him but he only gave small little replies or waves, more focused at the moment on finding Jared. That was all that mattered to him right now and he just wanted to talk things out with him. See if they could come to some kind of understanding. He could tell Jared was totally freaking out so he wanted to go try calming him down and reassuring him that everything would be ok.
Jensen didn't feel guilty about what him and Jared did together. He knows he should be guilty, but deep down he's just not. He has feelings for his friend. Those feelings have been there for a long time and he's not scared to admit it to himself. When he's with Jared everything just feels right, like it was meant to be. And he's not talking about that cheesy destiny crap, it's something more. He can feel the connection, he knows it's there and he can see it, but he's just gotta get Jared to see it as well.
    Jared heard a knock on his trailer door before he called out," Yeah, I'll be there, jus' a sec." He then pulled on the rest of his Sam Winchester outfit before going to open the door in the trailer, immediately trying to shut it again when he noticed it was Jensen but he just strolled on in anyways.
    " What d'ya want? Can't you see I'm trying to get ready? We have to be on set in like ten minutes, you should go get ready too," Jared breathed out, a hint of annoyance in his voice.
    Jensen quickly replied as he turned to look at  Jared," You know what I want. I wanna talk about what happened the other night. I know you obviously didn't forget."
" Well of course I didn't forget, I just don't wanna talk about it right now. Wait, scratch that, I never wanna talk about it. Ever," Jared suddenly snapped.
Jensen was about to reply until he was suddenly cut off by the sound of the director calling out," Five more minutes people. Get to set in five minutes." He then sighed, giving Jared one last glance before leaving his trailer and rushing to his own to get changed for that days filming.
    A couple minutes later all the cast and crew was joined together on set, director sitting in his chair and the camera crew finishing the setting up of their camera and lighting equipment. Today they'd be shooting a couple of scenes for the newest episode in season 12 and they were finally nearing the making of the last episode of the season.
    " Places every one, places please," someone on crew called out and then the two stars of the show, Jared and Jensen of course, walked onto set along with Misha, all of them standing on their tape marks on the floor. The camera started rolling moments later and they all started acting out the scene, small little mess ups here and there where someone would have to yell cut so they could reshoot that part again. The whole time Jensen was looking at Jared every chance he could get, but Jared wouldn't catch his eyes once. Jensen was desperate to make this whole situation better but he had no idea how to do that if Jared was going to ignore him like this, but at the same time he knew he deserved be be ignored after all.
    Half way through the busy day they finally got their lunch break. Everyone went straight to the eating area where meals were prepared and served for the cast and crew. As both Jensen and Jared were standing in line with their trays, Jensen whispered," Hey, I'm sorry about everything, ok? But we're not gonna be able to make this better if you ignore me. So can we please talk? Please, I'm begging you, man."
Jared glanced at Jensen before sighing, knowing that he actually had a point. He then breathed out quietly," Fine, ok, we can talk. Wanna go eat at my trailer? We can just bring our food their and talk about this."
    Jensen smiled happily with a quick nod, and after that the both of them got their food they headed over to Jared's trailer. After going in and sitting down on the couch, Jared breathed out," So, let's talk. The other night stuff happened.."
    " Yeah, stuff did happen. And truthfully I feel good about what happened because it felt right to me. How'd it feel for you?" Jensen quickly replied while looking at his friend, waiting for an answer.
    Jared sighed," I don't exactly know how I feel about what happened. I mean, it was nice in the moment, definitely nice, but I have a wife.. You've got a wife too, and I thought you and I were just supposed to be best friends."
Jensen shifted a little bit before taking a bite of his sandwich and then he said," Well I can't deny that I wanna be more than just friends with you, Jare. I have feelings for you, I can't help it. And if you have feelings for me too then I think we should be together because we deserve to be happy, right?"
    Jared fumbled with his fingers for a couple moments, looking down as he just thought about everything Jensen said. I mean, he had some feelings for Jensen too, but he just couldn't admit it to himself. If he did he would feel like he was betraying Gen. " I-I... I have feelings for you too, but that doesn't mean we should go divorcing our wives or anything like that. That'd just be horrible. Just because we have little feelings for each other doesn't mean we should do that," Jared replied while doing everything he could to avoid Jensen's eyes. Those pretty green eyes that he longed to be staring in every second of every day.
Jensen smiled wide at that, gently biting down on his bottom lip for a moment before asking," You have feelings for me too?"
    Jared let out a deep breath before finally looking up at Jensen and nodding," Yes, I have feelings for you. What should we do about this?"