Hold on Tight Love Ain't Getting No Easier

A Low Point

I wake up every morning at 12:00 ,and go to the Fire station where I'm a Fire fighter for Valdosta Fire department. I arrive at the station where we have morning duties to clean the station and do basic house cleaning things because we basically live there since we have 24 hours shifts. Soon as I get in I have to rush to a Car accident. Coming through the radio there's a baby not responding on the scene so we're going even faster I arrive on scene to see a Ford pick up F-250 have smashed this Mercedes. I'm hearing this woman cry for help I run to the car to see what's wrong the baby is laying in the seat unresponsive I tell someone to get the mother under control so I can perform CPR on this child cause paramedics haven't even made it. I began trying my hardest to get this woman's baby back to breathing. I'm thinking in my head " Lord please give me the ability to save this child ". I keep trying and trying still nothing everyone's getting worried. Paramedics arrive and try all they can they rush the young baby to the hospital as I watch the baby mom get into the ambulance she looked back at me our eyes met. She was in tears I could feel her pain. Bringing back memories 3 years ago when I lost my first little boy at birth. The guy of the F-250 is in tears by what he's done by not paying attention. So we clean up the scene I ran to chief and asked chief can I get an early break. I go back to the station I got on my motorcycle still having on my fire pants and fire boots. I run in the hospital asking where's the mother and her child that just came in ? The doctor says room 318 I run to the room to see her family friends and I'm guessing her baby's dad standing there looking sad. There asking me " who are you sir and what could you possibly want " (I'm guessing this is her mother). Mam I'm fire fighter Mathis I was the first one that tried to give the baby CPR I was coming to check on the baby. She responded were waiting on the news. I told the lady I'll wait here then. Me looking for the mom of the baby. I see the woman I was talking to walk over to this young woman sitting down crying and hug her. I thought (that must be her). Matter of fact that is her I'm thinking to myself how could this be happening to this woman. I was worried about her baby but I'm also thinking WOWWWWW she is beautiful. With her natural beautiful hair and the way she dressed was so professional. I'm wondering where does she work ? (Looking curious). Then this doctor comes alone and walks up to the mother of the child and everyone gathered I looked at the baby dad something in me told me he was no good. And the Doctor said "I'm sorry doctor Macy but your baby didn't make it" My eyes grew big and watery watching everyone cry and hug each other me and the baby dad walk's out the hospital. I see him get in the car and leave. THAT MADE ME MAD!! Your child just died and you have NOTHING to say to NOBODY. I see the family walking out the hospital ,and I walk up to the Mom and tell her I'm sorry for your loss ( drying my wet eyes ) I really am sorry. She looks at me and said "thank you I know you did all you could do " her family left her talking to me except her mom who was waiting on her. I gave her my card and told her "call me if you need ANYTHING " she responded " okay fire fighteeeerrrrrr Mathis " I told her just call me Brandon I reached to shake her hand and said
" and your name is?" (Doctor Macy but you can call me May ) okay well May I will keep you in your family in prayer she said " okay " and left carrying a heavy heart in her chest I can feel it.

Yes I know it's pretty sad but y'all let me know what you think so far 🙏🏾🥀