It's embarassing. Humiliating. Horrible.
I know I tried, I know I did an effort, I know I threw away my pride for the greater good. But in the end, I always regret. I always criticize myself. I always want to disappear, to hide from the whole world.
Yet it's unavoidable. Everyone needs to try, to accept, to dare oneself. No one will do anything, nor notice anything, unless you do something.
No one may compliment me, but I did not do such actions just to be complimented. It may be that I did it for myself, for others, or for everyone.
But the biggest, the worst, the problem that I hate the most, is that I
I overthink,
And overthink,
And overthink,
And overthink.
I only think, and think, and think.
I do not do what I want.
I do what others want me to do.
I do what others will not hate.
I do what is for everyone's sake.
And know, even I do not know myself.
I do not know my true personality.
I am doubting.
I am thinking my doings are fake.
So here comes the bigger question-
What should I really do?
