Oh my love are you listening? Can you hear me? I'm sorry I drove you away. I am truly in love with you. With your fluffy, soft hair and analyzing eyes. Ahhh my love our time together was the most sane part of my life. Love? do you remember, we were going to get married? I had a ring for you, I bought it by doing " jobs " for people. The ring is gold because I know you like to wear black and white and gold. I wear the ring now, on my ring finger on my left hand, of course.
I'm visting your grave today. I stop by a flowerist to pick up roses. I don't visit the same flower shop I use for my same family; that one is poisoned with the thoughts of my family. I pick out the pink, ones that are not quite yet blooming, roses. I remember our first Christmas together.
Flashback
Its 2014, Christmas Eve, you are nustled in my arms in my bed. We didn't do anything dirty; I was too clean and you were too innocent. I enjoyed the "cuddling" which was new to me. I never really liked anyone and no one really ever liked me.
I keep coming back with your favourite flowers and a kiss to your stone hoping you might come back. You haven't come back yet.
I cant wait to die; for when I dream of sleep I am caressing you.
