Jimin's POV
I have this disease called hanahaki. It is caused by unrequited love. I have it because of none other than Jungkook, my best friend (I guess not anymore ever since HIM). I started to cough up flower petals a year ago.
•FLASHBACK• (1 year ago)
Jimin's POV
Kookie, stop doing that in front of me. It hurts. It already hurts how just a few seconds ago, you announced your relationship to me saying, 'My bestfriend has to be the first one to know'. Thanks. I definitely didn't know I'm just a friend to you. (Note my sarcasm) I thought while I stared at Taekook flirting in Jungkook's room.Why can't you see. That I was here for you even before you met him. I was there to share all the laughs over such little things. All those cuddles we had when you had nightmares of me saying that I wanted our friendship to be over. All the tears when you had flashbacks of what happened to your mother. I was there for you when nobody else was, when he wasn't but now, I'm here wiping my tears alone. Crying myself to sleep. Cuddling with my pillows hoping that one day, it would be you. Hoping one day not only my pillows know about my tears.
Third Person's POV
Jimin ran to the bathroom to cry and the couple didn't even notice. Just when he was sobbing hard, he felt something threatening to come out of his throat so he crouched down to the toilet to see himself cough up petals, sunflower petals to be exact. Hanahaki. He chuckled. And his favorite, sunflowers. They're his favorite because he said it reminded him of me, his sun. He chuckled again but this time with a glint of sadness. He knew he would die loving Jungkook. But now, his sun is Tae and I'm the moon. Tae is shining in his world so now, I'm probably meant to brighten up someone else's. He thought.
J
imin's POV
I went back to the living room, where they were, just moments ago. That was when I saw a note adressed to me by none other than the two saying:
JIMIN
We went out for a bit.
Hope you don't mind.
You can go home ahead if you want.
We're sorry we didn't even ask.
We just thought you needed space
Because you were taking a long time
In the bathroom
-Kooks and Tae
That was when I took a cab back home and went straight to the bathroom to cough up more petals.
•END OF FLASHBACK•
(Still) Jimin's POV
Ever since then, I cut myself. I starved myself. You are just fat. You are ugly. You are worthless. You mean nothing to him. You are just someone he used because he had no one at the time. My mind kept going on about what I don't have. Then I broke down because one thing I don't have that Tae always will is Jungkook's heart, love and attention. What I crave the most.
After a while I started coughing up whole flowers. If the disease stays in my system longer without a cure, the flowers will engulf my lungs and I will die. I have already accepted that, knowing that I will see Jungkook happy everyday, even if I'm not the reason why he's happy, before I die is worth the pain. There are only two possible cures, one of which was out of the picture ever since I knew I had hanahaki because it was surgery, surgery that would take out the flowers inside my lungs, along with the feelings and memories of Jungkook. The other, however, was improbable, but not impossible, it was that Jungkook loved me back but there is a 0.000000001% chance he loved me back because 1.) He had Tae, 2.) I'm ugly, 3.) I am just worthless and most of all 4.) A friend is all he will ever see in me.
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FanfictionH A N A H A K I A U | J I K O O K Jimin loves Jungkook but Jungkook has a boyfriend. Just then, hanahaki hit Jimin real hard. Will Jungkook be able to save him or will Jimin die a death that he preferred over forgetting Jungkook?
