I'm debating on writing
because i finally found you
but i'm still deciding
if i really want to
because you could say i'm not yours
and make me take tests
but all i want
is to put this part of my sadness to rest
i just want to hear you talk
or see you write back
this is all i want
this is all i ask
i need this so bad
but mom says you might not want to believe me,
your new wife might resent my presence,
so now is the time to decide,
do i want to face this task?
or just sit and think about,
all the things i want to ask
but can't bring myself to
