Bex T.k imagines

"Does this mean I have a chance?"~{Audrey}

I suggest you read either "She's perfect, I can't believe she 's mine." Autumn.//Pt.1&2//" or "Soulmate AU.//Pt.2//" before you read this to get a hint of my writing style.

"Does this mean I have a chance?"~{Audrey}

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I lay in bed staring at the wall as warm tears continue to stream down the sides of my face, soaking my pillow not even trying to stop them, what's the point in doing that. They will keep coming.

I blindly reach for my phone somewhere beside me, I raise it above my head, the screen lighting up when I press the home button making me squint because of the dimly lit room I put on a random playlist from my phone and place it on my chest as soft tunes play out of the speakers.

Most of the music I listen to is depressing but kind of in a good way, though it wasn't helping the sate I was in right now, not that I wanted it to. Days like this usually happen, when it's 3 in the morning the moon still out, looming down on this shitty planet and I'm just laying in bed, thinking about nothing while listening to music as I just exist.

However today wasn't like those days, today my tears have a reason, today I was actually thinking about something, thinking about her. She would always be the reason for the smile on my face, the reason I got out of bed and was ready to face another day, as cheesy as it sounds it was true. She gave me purpose, a reason to still be breathing.

And... I fell in love.

It didn't matter to me that we were both girls or that it was 'wrong' according to society. It doesn't matter what my sexuality is because I didn't fall in love with her because she was a girl, I fell in love with everything about her. How a smile would grace her pink, plush lips, lighting up her eyes. How her angelic laugh would fill the room, bringing joy to everyone and making my heart swell. How her dark hair would always be so messy but look so good, making me want to run my fingers through them. How her wide blue orbs would just stare at everything with so much excitement, resembling a child. How she could look so hot yet adorable in whatever she wore.

I love everything about her. From her tiny hands, to her toned body and those sexy thighs that make me want to just grab her waist, pull her close to me and kiss the fuck out of her.

I love her so damn much and I would give up everything for her. I love her so much but I can't..

I pull myself up in a sitting position, my back hunched over as I furiously rub my eyes, banging my fist against my forehead.

"Get out of my head!" I whisper yell to myself.

In lightning speed I'm standing in my bathroom, splashing cold water on my cheeks. I look up to see my reflection in the mirror and all I see is an emotionless face with water dripping down it's chin.

I close my eyes, plastering a fake smile on my face and urging my eyes to change their emotion, I open them back up to see a person filled with happiness, with what seems to be a genuine smile on their face but I know better. I close my eyes again this time trying a different emotion, 'anger'. This process went on for a few minutes of me faking emotions such as, annoyance, betrayal, hunger, amusement and so on. It just made me more sick how easily I could change my emotions, all being fake but looking so real. They could fool anyone, they fooled everyone every single day.

I shake my head trying to get out when I realized I fell in a dark, familiar hole that felt suffocating but safe. At least it got my mind off of Audrey for a while, however short it may be.

I hear soft knocks on my window as I walk out the bathroom, my shoulders tensing up slightly, I try to make out the dark shadow crouched outside from the corner of my eye, continuing to walk to my bedside drawer where I keep some weapons since the killing started again.