Having Biker Baby

family affair

(Pic of levy ) It's been months since we moved ,baby Liam is growing up fast he can say mama now and has a funny name for his sister and aunt Mel. .. liv loves school and she's so smart I'm proud of her ,  I haven't heard anything from horse or his wife which I'm grateful for  ,I still receive  child support money some how it has increased he sends R4000  now.  I've been looking for a better job something in bookkeeping  or admin but no luck yet , Mel and I have made few friends and we loving it here but it's abit slow  it's like living in a farm away from the city .

Mel got herself a new boyfriend  very sweet guy he owns the bar that she works in . She's very happy

I have been trying to get hold of my sisters I'd really like them to atleast meet my kids ,I tried calling my parents but my aunt answered the phone and told me never to call again my parents don't want nothing to do with me ,  I got hold of my sisters numbers on Facebook  which I think she's crazy leaving them there but they helped me .. I was too scared to call her I think I'm more afraid  of rejection then anything  else,  I know we have our differences but they my sisters I miss them like crazy

After few weeks I finally got the courage to call levy ...omw why am I so afraid  ... it's levy she will want to hear from me right " hello" oh wow that's levy she sounds happy "hi sis "
Silence  this is why I didn't want to call her "Lisa. .. lisa is that you ?" "Yes lev  it's me how you doing " "shit no where the fuck are you we been looking for you like crazy where are you ,dad is sick ,  him and mom don't get along cuz of what he did to you ,  please come back lisa come with my niece , dad regrets it and lizzy regrets it too ,  it's not the same please tell me where you are " lev can u please come down let me talk too ,  you still talk too much " the  we both laughed "I'd love to see everyone but I'm not coming back I'm trying to build a life for my kids and it's. .." "wait wait wait did you say kids ? As in more then one ?" ..oh "yes I have a son to he is almost a year now liv is a big sis ,  she takes good care of her brother ,  reminds me of our relationship  " so we spoke alot and she agreed she would come see the kids by the weekend  since she's so excited  she can't wait  . I missed my sister

I've been telling liv and Mel about my family since long and liv has been looking forward to meeting  them

The Friday I got a call from levy asking for directions and I was nervous  as hell I hope the kids like her ,  to my surprise  she came with lizzy too our older sister

The meeting was very emotional  , kids got along with their aunty spent weekend with them bonding and I found out my aunt was lying she just liked seeing my parents fighting that's why she didn't want Me calling  , my sisters tried asking about horse I just told them I'm not ready to talk about him yet even Mel was supporting me throughout  the whole weekend .

In the Sunday my sisters had to leave lizzy cried she wanted to take kids with her ,  she fell in love mostly with Liam and levy with liv , levy and liv are too girly that's why

I've agreed to visit my parents soon and I've asked them not to tell them anything yet I will visit the following month

The following  month Mel couldn't  travel with us for the weekend  ,  i was not working on Friday so I  made liv skip school for a day so we could leave early , I was very scared my sisters assured me they wouldn't leave my side and dad and mum miss me

We arrived abit late, they were having supper , I sat in the car if it wasn't for liv telling she wants to use the toilet I don't think  I'd get out of the car ,  looking at the childhood  home I grew up in memories just flash, My sisters and I playing with dad and he was always so protective of us his precious  daughters ,  then I think of the phone call I made and how they kicked me when I needed them most

I walk up to the door carrying Liam and holding  liv , I knocked twice before I heard my mother's voice oh how I've missed her voice as she open the door we both froze "hello mummy" "Lisa my baby oh my God " then she looks at Liam then liv then back at me next thing I know she's crying and hugging  me kissing me and the kids wow she still smells the same oh mother then dad came around saw it was me and mum crying and holding kids , dad just went for me hugged me so tight I couldn't breath for few min .  Sisters took the kids and we went inside my parent introduced  themselves  to the kids ,  dad was excited about Liam, always wanted a son ,  my parents apologised about what they did how they tried looking  for me but no one knew where I was and my aunt was the one helping  them look for me talking  about a snake in the family