Dear Diary,
Well you are not exactly a diary anymore. I asked my mom for a new diary and she got me a notebook. She told me that diaries now are expensive. She got my first one on sale.
So I'm gonna have to do this....
Dear Notebook,
As soon as Trinity left me, I got naked again. I peeked outside the door to see if he was in my room. I see him beginning to take his clothes off. I saw a large tattoo along his spine that read:
我愛Casssandra德特用我所有的心臟
I learned a little bit of Chinese from him when we were dating. He had wrote me a card for my birthday once that said that same thing on it. It read:
I love Cassandra Gaudet with all my heart
A small "awww" escaped my mouth. I covered mouth hoping he didn't hear me. He did, and so he turned around. His pants and underwear were off. I wasn't even going to look at his... down there. Ugh Trinity, hurry up!!!! He was obviously looking at mine. "Are you ready to make love, love?" "Whatever. Daniel I'm a virgin, so I have never done this before." Some part of me was like DAMMIT CAS WHY DID YOU SAY THAT!!! but the other half of me thought he wasn't gonna want to make love to me now that I said that. "Daniel, I-I'm scared." He points to his... area. I finally look and he has a condom on. "So what, what if it breaks?" I can see Trinity' s reflection through the mirror in my room. He tells me that it won't break. "Daniel, if we r gonna do this, I'm gonna have to close the door, someone can see us through that window, bars or not." "Ok babe." Daniel said in a sexy voice. "Ok" I said "let's go." He somehow throws me on to the bed. I honestly was scared but I could hear a happy voice in my head that's saying FINALLY!!!! But yet, I was gonna hate the moment when my parents find out I lost my virginity. He gets on tops of me and he starts to kiss me. Then after a while, he got hard (if you know what I mean). I knew that it was gross and all, since he was my ex-boyfriend, but still.... Trinity acts like she just got here and she screamed "GET OFF MY BEST FRIEND YOU SICK BASTARD!!!!!!" Daniel turned to look at her, but he ignored her and kept working on me. "THAT'S IT!!!!" Trinity rushed to Daniel and yanked him off of me. "Run Cas, RUN!!!" I ran and I heard punching and kicking. When I closed the door I started crying and getting dressed. After I got dressed I climbed out the window. I ran until I saw a note that said:
Babe, get in the car.
Love,
J.B.
OH. MY. GOODNESS. Jamie came to save me. I thought that was the sweetest moment ever. I got in the car that was near that prison room I was in and when I got in, Jamie came in for a kiss. When we stopped to breathe I told him "Jamie, I'm sorry." "For what sweetie?" he said. "Daniel made me lose..." He kissed me at that moment again and I realized it was to shut me up. "Yeah, I know. Trinity found me after I got home and she told me everything. Maybe tomorow we can ditch school and do it at my house when my parents are at work? Or is it too soon." "Babe, I love you. I want to do it all day with you. But if I feel traumatized in anyway, I will stop, ok." "What if we did it right now?" We didn't because Trinity told us to get out of this car and I realized, it had no engine on it, so he couldn't drive me off anyway. I ended up going to his house during school and we had sex, all day. Well we were in bed all day. I ended up sleeping at his house overnight, his parents didn't mind because they loved me. That was the best day of my life. I mean after just being haunted by Daniel for half of my day, that made me forget about that terrible moment.
I'm going swimming with Jamie WOOHOO!!! Finally gonna get out of this piece of crap that is called....
Oops. I almost said something that I wasn't supposed to say. It's better left unsaid unless it was time to say it.
Sincerely,
Cassie
