One Of Us

You Have A Great Voice

Niall's POV

'Here's my chance, the studio is empty!' I think to myself excitedly. My name is Niall Horan, you might recognize me as the seventeen year old Irish boy that went on X Factor last year. I didn't get three 'yes''s but Simon Cowell saw my potential and three months later after the X Factor tour ended he offered me a chance to be One Direction's guitarist. And of course I said yes after my family's encouragement to tame this once in a lifetime chance, but I have to say I do miss singing. I get along with the lads pretty well, we chat for a few minutes here and there but other than that I try to stay out of their way, not because they're rude because they are far from it. They are the nicest guys I know, but I just feel like I don't deserve to be friends with them. I didn't go on to be a member of One Direction for a reason, and I don't wanna be the one to drag them down. I look around the empty hall a few times to make sure so one is coming before entering the empty recording studio, closing the door quietly behind me. Aside from band practice I'm also getting singing lessons three times a week from the same coach as the boys only at different times. I don't have a lesson today so I figured I'd just do some solo practice. I stand in front of one of the microphones and think of the song the band and I have been practicing for the lads.
"Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me but bear this mind it was meant to be and I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
and it all makes sense to me" I begin to sing softly, thinking about the one boy that's beginning to steal my heart. Louis is a very sweet guy and is always trying to get me to join him and the boys for activities like watching movies, eating together, or just hanging out. Everytime I see him I feel my heart skip a beat and it takes all of my self control to change my mind after seeing his disappointment every time I decline their offers.
"I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile, you've never loved your stomach or your thighs, the dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine but I'll love them endlessly" I continue, thinking of all his adorable little quirks. Like his smile every time he gets carrots with his lunch and the adorable bursts of energy he gets when they're performing.
"I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth but if I do, it's you, oh it's you, they add up to, I'm in love with you and all these little things" I sing gently, feeling sadness hit me as I think about how he'll never know how I feel. I'm never going to tell him, if I did and he didn't feel the same way I'd never be able look at him the same way again.
"You can't go to bed without a cup of tea, maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep and all those conversations are the secrets that I keep though it makes no sense to me" I sing with a little laughter in my voice, remembering all of the times he's talked with me half asleep when I try waking him and the other boys up in the morning. Don't even get me started on the half hour long conversation we had about him dancing with a carrot.
"I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape, you never want to know how much you weigh, you still have to squeeze into your jeans but you're perfect to me" as I sing this I think about how Louis reacted the first time he heard the audio for What Makes You Beautiful six months ago, he couldn't believe that that was him singing and he just looked at the other boys who had similar expressions on their faces after hearing their first song together as an official band. It also took him a while to get used to wearing tight jeans and for a few weeks I'd hear him mumble to himself about he felt weird wearing them.
"I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth but if it's true, it's you, it's you, they add up to, I'm in love with you and all these little things" I smile as I remember our first conversation. He came bouncing over to me excitedly and introduced himself with this goofy grin on his face that was so big I thought his cheeks would burst.
"You never love yourself half as much as I love you, you'll never treat yourself right darling but I want you to" at this part I frown slightly, thinking of how he'd get all self conscious about himself, scared he'd screw up and ruin everything they're working so hard for.
"If I let you know I'm here for you, maybe you'll love yourself like I love you oh" and I'm always there to quickly reassure him that everything will be alright and he'll look at me with a big smile and thank me for cheering him up before hugging me and going to hang out with the others.