Astro x Male Reader One-Shots

Warm Hugs - Moon Bin X Depressed! Male! Reader

*WARNING: Suicide is mentioned*

*Y/N's POV*

I felt so lonely. I had been sitting in the bed that my boyfriend, Moon Bin, and I shared. I was feeling really depressed lately. Hell, I tried to drown myself the other night while taking a bath. But, just as I the water was filled my lungs I pulled myself out.

I thought about how it would effect Moon Bin and suddenly I couldn't do it. So I just sat there and cried silently so Moon Bin wouldn't hear me. Once I cried myself out I got out, got dressed, and went straight to bed without saying good night to Moon Bin.

When I woke up there was a note on my bedside table that just said he had left some food on the dining room table and that he hoped that I had a good day. I just sighed as I placed the note back down on the table.

I didn't want to get up I didn't see the point anymore. So I spent the day in bed debating on whether or not to just walk out on Moon Bin and end my life. He would be much happier, I'm just holding him back.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I failed to hear the first door of the dorm open and close again. I heard a frustrated sigh and foots steps coming up the stairs. I had no choice, I'd have to face him. As much as I didn't want to, I have to. I pulled the blankets over my head hoping that he would think that I'm asleep and leave me be, but he wasn't having it.

"Y/N, I know you're awake. Please remove the blankets from your head. We need to talk now." I felt the bed dip under me as I gripped onto the blankets tighter. Moon Bin suddenly yelled, "DAMN IT JUST TALK TO ME!!"

I started to shake, he'd never raised his voice at me before. I slowly peeked out from the blankets and what I was met with made my heart hurt. Moon Bin's cheeks were stained with tears, eyes were puffy, and his face was a little red.

He clearly had been crying, but over what was the mystery. "Hey Moon Bin. How was practice today?" "Don't 'Hey Moon Bin' me! What's wrong with you?!"

Moon Bin grabbed me by my shoulders, "It's nothing. Don't worry about it, I'm fine." He growled, "Don't give me that bullshit! I know that's a lie, now tell me what's wrong. I can help you, but I need you to tell me what's making you upset."

There was a long silence before I spoke to give him an answer, "I'm feeling really depressed..." He stared at me in shock, "Y/N I didn't...." "That's not all..." "What do you mean?!"

I had to pick my next words very carefully, god only knows how Moon Bin would react. "I tried... to kill myself..." "WHAT?!" "I'm really sorry..." "SORRY ISN'T GOING TO CUT IT! HOW?! WHEN?!" "Last night, in the tub. I tried to drown myself..."

Moon Bin wrapped his arms around me and started to cry. "I'm so sorry.... I'm such a terrible boyfriend... I'm so blind... I never noticed..." I gently hugged him back and sighed, "It's not your fault. Don't blame yourself. It's not your fault that I want to die. I just feel like such a burden to you..."

"NO! You are not allowed to ever say that! You are not allowed to ever leave me!" "Moon Bin, it's useless to change my mind about wanting to die."

"You are not allowed to leave my side. You have to come to practices and you have to start coming on tours with me so I can keep a close eye on you. If I need to I will start skipping practices to spend time with you."

I just rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes, "I still feel like burden." Moon Bin sniffled, "You're not. I love you more than anything on this Earth. I would be beside myself if you died. I would do anything to make sure that you're happy. I would leave Astro if it meant you would be happy. I really love you and I want you to truly be happy. I promise that I will help you through your depression no matter how long it will take. We will get through this together. Please don't give up just because you feel upset. If you ever feel crappy please talk to me. Do you understand?"

I shook my head yes. "Okay. I understand." Moon Bin gently stroked my head, "Good. I love you so much Y/N." "I love you too." We both pulled away from the hug and looked at each other. Small tears were still running down Bin's face so I wiped them away with my thumb and kissed his cheek.

"So what do you want to do now?" Moon Bin kissed my forehead, "Go downstairs, sit on the couch, I'll make you some food and we can just hang out and cuddle." I smiled, "Sounds like a plan to me."

End~