Burnt Mind

3: Grow Up

Warning:

I heard,

"Maturity comes,

When you stop making excuses,

Start making changes."

More Likely:

"The true mark of maturity,

When somebody hurts you,

You try to understand their situation,

Instead of trying to hurt them back."

The clock struck August

Life turned upside down

Everything has changed

Big changes like,

I used to walk into a room full of people,

Wonder if they liked me

Now I look around,

Wonder if I like them

Some may say,

It's called Growing Up

Well, The hardest part of growing up,

Letting go of what I was used to,

Moving on with something I'm not

I'm not okay with this

I guess I should've learned,

I'll end up disappointed,

I grew up thinking,

Everyone has the same heart

Too Late

Best friends,

I had a few

I'm down to three

This apparently became a thing

Instead of growing up together,

We separated then grew up

No one knows how this started,

For Sure

If I had one more thing to say,

Even though we're growing up,

We should have never stopped having fun.

But as I have read from Pavana,

"We break to grow."

That's my frightening reality

I left for college too,

Only a few blocks away

Claims of "We never see each other",

And "You're always busy",

Shoved in my face

Apparently, I'm the villain

I know things,

I wish I didn't

Sorry, Not Sorry,

I'm annoying or too weird

I'm not going to stand by and be insulted

I won't be your little puppet,

Bending at your wishes,

I thought we were friends

Things have gotten overwhelming

I'm the one,

Everyone vents to

I have no one

I'm just a doormat

No more personal stuff,

I know too much

It's become more awkward,

Peer's around

The air is suffocating me

I know,

They want to punch me,

In the face

I shut down

I'm a bottle,

Not going to spill

I've come to understand,

It's hard to think about growing up,

When you're right in the middle of doing it

I just wish,

If I had one more chance,

I'd want to go on more adventures

Be around good energy

Connect with people

Learn new things

I want to be happy 

Wishing is for youngsters

I'm a legal adult