mindless odes from a scatterbrain

xvii

to a friend whom i may never leave,
but must in order to be happy.

i know how much you've been through.
i know how bad it's been for you.
but you need to understand this.
your life is not more important than mine.
just because you have gone through things,
does not mean that my feelings are below yours.
i've always put your feelings before mine.
but it's like you don't even check in with me
anymore. you don't care about me.
you seem to only help with making
things worse for me.

i will always care about you.
i just wish you did the same.