why do people leave with no explanation? no excuse? maybe i did something wrong? maybe you took it the wrong way? maybe my actions weren't intentional? maybe you just wanted to move on from our friendship? i dont know. you dont want to talk about it. but thats okay. i cant force it upon you. i just never thought it would be you to leave me like that. out of everyone i thought youd stay. the nights i spent crying, shaking, self harming, you were there. almost came to my house. even hung out with me when i ran from my house to cool down. you meant more to me than i ever showed you. it hurt to lose you.
i just wish i could tell you how much you fucking meant to me without me sounding like an idiot.
you are so creative, smart and ambitious. i hope everything goes well for you. i hope we speak again. you are such a tough person. you always had my back. you are such a meaningful, down-to-earth person. you have such an old soul. you are truly a great person.
im sorry for the way i treated you or if you took my actions the wrong way. i respect whatever choice it is.
just remember i love you so much and i could never lose the love i have for you. you were my best friend. thank you. so much. you never gave me any trouble. please dont beat yourself up. youre so great, i just fucking miss you and wish our friendship couldve been talked out.
i miss you, and i love you. no one will ever compare to you. thank you for the years well spent.
please dont hurt yourself. you're beautiful and worth it. i love you.
