The Change Of Ways (ON HOLD)

Im Sorry For It All

   There they were, the most popular girls of the school; Layla, Kate, and Bethany. They pratically ruled the school having everyone at their side but, they didnt fool me. They would bully me but i stood up for myself no matter how many times I was hurt. Every day i would walk out of school with cuts, bruises, black eyes, and even scars. I went home only to get abused by my parents.

  I dont even understand the point of living anymore so why not leave the world? I had a knife in hand when I saw someone at the front door. I groan putting my knife down throwing on a long sleeve running down the stairs opening the front door.

  I see one of the bullies that is a guy and i tear up lightly. I have never really been to good with my emotions.. He stands there wiping my tears grabbing my chin with his pointer finger and thumb lifting my head. More tears fall down my cheek as I cant take it anymore causing me to fall to the ground rolling up into a ball in my river of tears. "Gosh, why am I so weak..?" I said thinking to my self as he picked me up carefully rocking me back and forth.

  I looked at him confusingly but he only gave me a small sorry smile. I was hesitsnt at first but I ended up wrapping my arms around his back in a small yet warm hug. He gently set me on the couch wiping away the tears from my face leaving my face to be stained from the tears.

  I turn on the TV turning on a depressing channel. He looks at me taking the remote from my hands switching the channel to Netflix which I didnt even know we had. He signed into his account as I see a bunch of rectangle things with photos in them. He chuckles lightly choosing one of them. "These boxes with photos are called movies. The one we are about to watch is a childish movie but I think you will like it. Its called Wonder." He says smiling widely.

  I lightly yawn as my head falls on his shoulder but i retrieve it scared on what he might do to me if i leaned on him. He gently grabs my head lightly pushing it on his shoulder wrapping his arm around my shoulders. The movie goes on as I smile for the first time in years.. He sees me and pulls me closer to him as I see his cheeks bringing a light pink color to them. I get tempted to play with hair and i hesitate at first but then bring my hand to his hair brushing through it.

  I giggle at how soft it is and how i see the pink on his face go from a light pink to a light red. I see the blade on the table across the room so i run to it cutting my face a good couple of times as he yells at me to stop. I go back to the couch as he just stares at me. I run back up to my bedroom grabbing my suitcase as I jump out the window. I run and run until I reach a forest. 'Perfect,' I think. I turn my head over my shoulder only to see him.

  I groan and keep running as i see a cliff. I take my chances and jump off tumbling with knife in hand, with every turn making a new stab in my side. I give in and yell pain as I see him at the bottom running to me, picking me up. He runs to a near by hospital and they lead me to a nearby room.

   "Please keep her safe.." He says in tears. "Liliana, tell me... Why did you do that?" He said stuttering a bit as fresh tears form falling from his eyes. I turn onto my side having fresh tears form as well. He squats down facing me, looking me in the eye. "I Did it because.. No one cares.. I want the pain gone! Everyone wants me gone." I say, each word bringing more tears. He wrapped his arms around me in a hug crying even more.

  "I care about you.. I know i bullied you but that was a mistake. The biggest mistake i ever made.. I can help you.. Me and my family are moving to a different state. You can come with us and the both of us can start over!" He said excitedly while the stream of tears stopped flowing from his eyes. "Me? Come with you?" I said stuttering on every word. "Yeah! If it's okay with your parents."

  He said smiling widely again. How can someone smile twice in one day?! "My parents don't care.. They abuse me anyways.." I said turning onto the other side. He walked over to the other side holding my hand. "Then I'll just take you with me.. You'll be safe. I promise." He said placing his lips on my forehead lightly.