Beneath my Cloak

Because I love her...

I don't know if she sees it, if she sees my pain, to love her everyday and know that she does not feel the same, yes its good for a second, to walk with or hold her, but when realization sets it doesn't matter that I've told her, friends? Definitely awesome but I want. More. Its churning my emotion leaving my heart sore, Cant stand to see her joking, blushing over this guy and wanting to fight for her but just forcing a sigh, cant believe I'm saying this but I want her till the end, even if we were long distance my love I would send, I know its selfish to avoid her but what do I do, when I cant but melt in her arms, and this is all so true, just the simplest touch, feels like shes trying to kill me, and its hurting so much especially since shes still free, she knows I like her but I don't blame her, because friends don't just look at each other and not touch, they laugh hug and do things that are never to much, I'm frustrated because when I look at more than just her face im wrong, stuck singing the wrong song, innocent? I wish but my brains doing crazy, and all I can scream is "WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!" Im happy she doesn't see me because if she did she would reject me much easily, She already hurts me when she chooses his over or friendship, to look around and only think about how my life's taking this grand dip, She doesn't see it when I wince at my pain, the kind I get around her when I feel insane, I know she cares its not all about me, but you'd understand My crazy if everyday you saw what I see, Her beauty her smart, her love, Yes! her passionate love for writing and art, and her appearance don't even make me start, I'll die right now this exact very minute, but maybe deaths just a dream and I can imagine shes in it, but just friends, only friends, and that's all we will ever be, but as long as shes in my life, that's fine by me, because I love her.